All Different, Each Unique

Think before you speak.

2010-12-18T09:08:00.000-08:00

It is really disturbing for me to read comments from a stupid fool who knows nothing but to complain about our Government now.

She complained on many things but she focused more onto our education's systems.

And surprisingly, she even questioned about her own special rights. haha, you are one funny clown you know?

Okay anyway it goes like this. she did foundation in a private college. got a good CGPA. and she decided to continue her studies, well, in a local university.

Unfortunately, the local university didn't want her as she took her foundation year from a private college.

Can you see my point here? From a private to a local university. isn't that a bit weird? If we're talking from one local uni to another, then it's okay. If we're talking about from a private uni to another, then it is okay as well.

From there, she started to complain harshly on stuffs, everything that has been done by the Government will never be right in her eyes. Will never ever be right.

First, she should ask herself. Why did she do foundation in a private college?

Yeah, I still remember the time when I just finished sitting my SPM. I started to think where should I go after that. My friends and I thought of going to a local university. Private university was an option too, provided we get the scholarships.

but what I heard, that she had planned for going to a private college.

she should have studied on how does private education work.

Bear in mind, I can say most of the private colleges are making money, they are not here to educate us, really. In other words, they are more into money rather than educating us. But this is not on all of them.

Again, I'm talking about most of them, not all. Some private universities are good, some are even better than the local universities.

If I were to open a university that will be named after me, I will never ever let my students to carry on their studies outside of my university. I will force them, in the softest way as possible, to continue on at the same university. Come on you guys, don't you want to make money at all if you have your own university?

well anyway, the Government is to blame. she blamed the Government for being cronyism and practice discrimination. All this just because she was not accepted to a local university after she finished her foundation year in a private university. Why do you blame the Government on this matter? For your information, the Government has been subsidizing the fees on local universities since you were not born yet, even I was not born yet. Just imagine how long was that, to support Malaysians on local fees. I say this to show you that our Government do fucking care about us okay. =)

I talked to my bestie, he studies in a local uni. He told me that the government pays more or less around 47K on fees, for a student in a local uni. Ohh boy, that is a lot amount of money, just to pay for one student. RM47000 is a lot. I don't know if it is not to you but to me, it's huge. Doesn't this show that the Government do fucking care about us? =)

That is why private university is way more expensive than a normal local university. In private universities, it's either scholarships or you are on your own.

Please don't blame the Government if you don't study about them first before you utter your words ya. Please, just don't. Please, don't follow your emotions too much, it'll make you look (kind of) stupid.

I know how it feels like to be rejected but you are blaming at the wrong thing. You should have taken the foundation year in a local university if you know in the first place that you'll be continuing your studies in a local uni in the future. In a way to say that, it's your own fault. Try to be wise a bit.

Moving on to transportation issue.

Yes, I agree in some ways, regarding the quality of our transportation systems. The Government should improvise or find a new way to transport people from a point to another. One of the ways, according to Dr. Mahathir, is to privatize our transportation's sector. I must admit that private sectors are better than Government's sectors but this happens for some reasons. One of the reasons is private sectors can concentrate on their respective fields while the Government has to focus on many things i.e educations, healths, transportation and etc. Put it this way, which one is a better choice, to study just on one subject or to study on, let us say, 12 subjects at the same time? Of course, the first choice is the best choice. ^_^

But, I don't think it is practical to make a bicycle track around the city since you have the side of the roads for you to roam about the city. If the tracks should be built around the city, it will cost a major investment and also, a major headache for engineers. Imagine this, you have to move a building, just to make space for a bicycle track. Yes, it sounds ridiculous. Let alone building tracks for traveling across one city to another city. Do you want a special track from Bukit Bintang to Shah Alam? Okay, you would say yes. What about this next question then, do you want to cycle from Bukit Bintang all the way to Shah Alam in your special track for bicycle riders? I don't think you even dare to say 'yes' to this. It's pointless to cycle in that kind of distance unless you're an athlete or some sports freak.

It is safe to cross here and there across the city with bicycle. Even in my university, people cycles to classes and they do just fine.

On a different story.

I feel 'invited' to write this post because when I read the comments, I was like "haish, what else do you want? you better stop talking and shut up, that's better you know.". I was filled with anger and confusion. I told myself, I have to say something to make me feel better.

Malay. I am a Malay.

We can hear noises coming from various directions, provoking racism and all. haiyoo, can't we all just live in peace? Be matured. Be advanced.

She questioned about her own race special's rights. Honestly, that was a really stupid act. It's like, you are denying the fact that you are a human being.

You are denying something that is yours and forever it will be yours. Why do you want to give it away to others?

The special rights that I have now, have been decided and agreed by representatives from all races that exist in this country. They have been agreed. So, why bother? You agreed, they agreed and we agreed on it. Why and why and why did you question this? ohh my God, I just can't understand why.

Do you think the special rights that we have now, is the main cause to racism? No, that's the answer.

Racism occurs when a party doesn't get what it wants, but not what it needs. If the party get what it needs, it won't even bother. If it asks something what it wants and it doesn't get it, then it will start barking aloud.

Let's face it, no one can satisfy everyone. You just can never do that.

It's really saddening to know that she questioned her own rights. Too sad, really.

If you think the Government is not good enough for you, then I think you try to go out overseas and go to any developing country like us. I say developing because it is not fair for you to compare America or United Kingdom with our country. They are developed country, we are a developing country. Go to India or Indonesia or wherever you want as long as it is a developing country.

I assure you that you will be grateful of what we have right now in our country led by our Government.

Or you can try this, try to embrace communism or any other idealism and see where will it take you. Discrimination, bloodbath, merciless Government and so forth. This one I promise you man.

Or if you are still not satisfied with what I say or what the Government has done for the country, well, it is best for you to migrate to another country. Just leave the country. We don't need you.

That's all.

I hope that individual will get her mind opened and be wiser.

Cheers,

Okay, I get it.

2010-10-25T04:30:00.000-07:00

No matter what I do,
They always compare me with him.

No matter what I do,
They always say "This sounds like him.".

No matter what I do,
They'll say "Find your own identity.".

No matter what I do,
They will try to find 'it'.

No matter what I do,
They will say "Stop copying and stop trying to be him.".

No matter what I do,
They will always continue to do this.

I thought he is just one of my influences.
Just one of my influences.
The difference is that he is the biggest one out of all of them.
That is all.

How I Met You

2010-10-20T09:25:00.000-07:00

[Verse]
Hey Hotness,
We meet again,
This time,
I will not let you take me down,

Hey Hotness,
Before I begin,
Your circle,
Does it even exist?

[Pre-chorus]
You paved me a paradise,
Too bad it will not last,
The gaze that you gave to me,
Will always be with me,

[Chorus]
I have tried to find my way,
Back into your heart again,
I believe I have lost the key,
Straight into your heart again,

Your warmth,
It turns me on,
Your warmth,
Yes it turns me on and on and on...

[2nd Verse]
Hey Hotness,
I'll cut this out,
You know that your time is running out,

Hey Hotness,
You think I'm scared,
Ohh no no,
Not even a single bit,

[Pre-chorus]
You paved me a paradise,
Too bad it will not last,
The gaze that you gave to me,
Will always be with me,

[Chorus]
I have tried to find my way,
Back into your heart again,
I believe I have lost the key,
Straight into your heart again,

Your warmth,
It turns me on,
Your warmth,
Yes it turns me on and on and on.

Composed by: Umar Adnan

*This song is about someone who is personally attached to you.
you've tried your best to give everything to him/her.
but then you get bored with all the demands from your partner.
no matter what you do, you won't satisfy him/her.

Muzzled Voice.

2010-08-24T08:20:00.000-07:00

I can't get this thing out of my mind. I kept thinking about it, imagined what would happen about it, thinking where would this thing go at the end.

these few days, i surfed the internet and found few Malaysians wrote about this thing.
and this thing is about 'R'.
you know, all the perkasa thingy, school's headmistress thing, church's thing and so on.
I don't see a point why on Earth these so called Malaysians want to debate about it.
it's going nowhere my friend.

if you debate it just for the sake of showing who is more superior, either you or them, it's just plain stupid.

I read an article about Tan Sri Muhy...
in the article, he said something that sounds like this "Even 'they' can have their own perkasa. we never did stop them from doing so."
i was like "huh?".
Do you really have to make that statement?
Do you have to provoke others by saying that?
To me, that statement could set the racial tension that we have since independence on fire.

I know some people would say "hey you should have race-proud in you!".
Yes, I really know that.
I wouldn't sell my own country to others.
But let us think this way.
If we can put these things behind us and supress the feeling of being superior, just imagine how awesome Malaysia could be.

I said this to my sister "They think they are better than us. They are 'better' just because long time ago they were sent to live in the cities. Think about what would happen the other way round, we live there and they live here. Of course, I believe we will become just like them, better than them."
It's a fact that they control the economy. Even our PM said, "Malaysia wouldn't be what it is today if it is not because of them."
Mahathir said in his blog, "They control the economy and some other fields. They possess most of the wealth of this country."
But still we can hear little voices saying "I want a post in the Government, I want this, I want that."
Ohh come on now, seriously.

You have the wealth but now you're asking for power?
We must think rationally and logically.
We don't give the posts to others due to a reason.
The reason is, we don't have that much of wealth like you, so we all have to compensate by leaving the power to us and and the wealth to you.
The wealth that you have now is more than enough.
You will think: "Wow, just leave all the wealth to them???"
The trick is: With money, it doesn't mean that you can have power.
But with power, you can definitely get money.

Now there's a question surfaced: Why do we have less wealth than them?
Yes, interesting.
The Government made a 'dasar' (I dont know what is it called in English), which was meant for us.
But unfortunately, we do not know how to take this advantage made for us.
Possibly, one of the reasons why we become like this is because we are scared to be labelled as a racist ass.
We shouldn't be scared you know.
One way to tackle this problem is to think like this;
If they were to say to you, that you are a racist, then they are just the same like you, a racist.
Why would you say we are racists when you yourself play around with the racial issues?

If I give you money, you guys will hail me, hidup panjang yay!
But when I give the money to my family, children, son, daughter (you name it), you will question me why are you doing this? You racist fcuk.

Irony isn't it? ^_^

Conclusion, please be rational in what we say and in what we do.

Cheers~.

chorus lagu

2009-12-20T07:43:00.000-08:00

now it's the time to forgive,
now it's the time to believe,
washing away all the sins,
creating love and happiness.

interesting and this song is quite addictive.

what a line for a chorus.

alright.

"Yes Umar, what happened?" - Jiuan

Sorry for the Late Reply/Give Me a Nudge

2009-11-10T04:40:00.000-08:00

The gaze,
That you gave to me,
Will always be with me,
And do you know girl,
You are my world,
I believe you're for real,

I try to find my way,
Back into your heart again,
I think I've lost the key,
Straight into your heart again,

Your warmth,
It turns me on,
Your warmth,
Yes, it turns me on,

Do you know girl,
You are my world,
I believe you're for real,
And the gaze,
That you gave to me,
Will always be with me,

I try to find my way,
Back into your heart again,
I think I've lost the key,
Straight into your heart again,

Your warmth,
It turns me on,
Your warmth,
Yes, it turns me on.

another song that i wrote myself. i still can't decide what title should i name this song, it could be 'SFTLR' or 'GMAN'. this song, has the 'circus' kind of sound to it, it's very happy on the music itself but quite 'hoping and expectation' on the lyrics. this song is about 'consoling' someone that you love or like, and hoping that he/she will come back to you and say "it's okay, let's start over again.". this song is really inspired by Jay Chou, and some other chinese songs as well. in this song, i don't play guitar at all, just piano, bass and drums. the piano's riff is quite 'beaty'. i wrote this song after i watched the movie 'Secret' loads of times. and yeah, my bandmates like it. i like it.

P/S: "kalau kau langgar aku, berkecai la kau." - Adib Naqiuddin a.k.a 'Optimus'

Pleiades in Your Heart

2009-11-09T06:51:00.000-08:00

Do you still remember when we were one?
I'm losing my grip,
On you and on us,

Can you still remember when we were one?
You're losing your grip,
On you and on us,

The question is now,
Whether can you still remember when we were one?
There is a Pleiades in your heart,
Pleiades,
Please shine for me,

And I recall,
The very first line you said,
"We're losing our grip",
"On you and on us",

The question is now,
Whether can you still remember when we were one?
There is a Pleiades in your heart,
Pleiades,
Please shine for me.

this is a song that I wrote, just for fun. It sounds a little bit like U2, Guiding Light, Invincible and some other stuff. i 'received' the melody after hearing Hilary Duff's "Hey Now" like for thousands of times. the melody came to me when i was showering. so i sang the melody a lot and walao, one song created. no one ever listened to this song yet, i showed it to Alif once but he was like, "slownya lagu ni......" =.="
it starts with the key of C, the most "complete-soothing-calm-low profile" key to me. and MAYBE, I'll end it with the most unresolved chords of all (well, at least to me), the Maj7 chord, which in this case, is the C Maj7.

alright.

P/S: "ha??..the fucking river??" - Jiuan

You Girls Really Make My Day.

2009-10-14T09:03:00.000-07:00

Su Ai, Siew Yin and Jiuan,

thanks for making my day today become an awesome day. i had fun, we had fun.

keep in 'touch' k. ^^

P/S: "Please don't go..." - Ooi Siew Yin

Finale

2009-10-10T20:03:00.000-07:00

final is just this monday.

i really looking forward to going back. have few things to do with friends and family.

^_^

alright.

P/S: "Well, it's a rock band, isn't it?" - Matthew James Bellamy

I want Wen Jun to win the 'future model' award. I voted for you sweetie.

2009-09-26T18:14:00.000-07:00

Suluclac!

2009-09-09T09:49:00.000-07:00

it's calculus actually..sigh..

i'm having a calculus test this friday (the one that spoils my plan with my sis and alif) and i can say i'm pretty nervous. wuhuuu, am feeling nervous because i have some questions that i understand but i don't know how the method to solve it like "The Long Division method". wow, it looks majestic over there eh?.

anyway, i'm here not to talk about it, i'm here to talk about music. *ehem*.

well, music is part of me, i play music whenever i feel bored or when i need to be entertained.

i have written a quite number of songs, which are;

1. Wonderful
2. Menang
3. Chromatic Expression
4. Serenade No.1, in E major
5. Extraordinary (my favourite)
6. Prelude No.1, in C major
7. Muzzled Voice
8. Sorry for the Late Reply
9. Distress
10. Overture

these are the songs that we probably gonna record later in October, insyaallah.

Muzzled Voice and Distress are 40% complete.

Overture is an 'overture', it is 100% instrumental without any vocals, and I improvise from the Muzzled Voice's riffs.

alright.

and i'm working on a disco-dancing-kind-of-song, for now, it is known as 'Rock Robot'.

P/S: "apa barang makan nasi." - Apit

Beautiful sound.

2009-08-20T07:57:00.000-07:00

Exogenesis: Symphony, Pt. 3 (Redemption), is so beautiful.

i feel very very high whenever i listen to it.

i never felt this way since the very first time i listened to Butterflies and Hurricanes, back then.

"Let's start over again, why can't we start it over again?"

P/S: "Are you a girl?" - Umar Adnan

NK turned on.

2009-08-20T07:28:00.000-07:00

i watched WHI on tv3 and the topic was "tilam dan bantal; mengawal nafsu pasangan baru"

they talked about controlling your desire to have xes with your husband/wife during the fasting month.

what i noticed, i can see that Norish Karman was a bit 'over' on this matter. she cracked 'XXX' jokes in front of the camera. well, to be honest, i do like it BUT the thing is, it's like the national tv baby, everyone watches national tv.

there you go, now everyone can see that you're a bit 'thirsty' in a way.

alright.

P/S: "If you never make mistakes in music, you never face music." - Grace Alexendra

Lestari Yang Jelas.

2009-08-09T06:26:00.000-07:00

you cut too much here, please oh please, bitch, i don't go for you, aku tak hadap kat kau.

i'm puzzled, why and why are you acting like this?. oh come on, grow up please.

regret is the best word that represents what i feel right now. i regret for helping you in soooo many things but hey, this low-life creature has never been grateful. for the first time in my life, i regret for helping someone. let me be clear, i regret for helping you.

and i can bet, you will never survive in the real world, even the daily life. because you know nothing sweetie, extremely fucking blur. your living skills are way too low, lower than your own dignity.

pfft. you can't even pay the parking ticket yourself. twat.

aku tahu kau siapa, kau tahu kau siapa.

kepada,
Lestari Yang Jelas.

Great.

2009-08-03T04:00:00.000-07:00

I have listened to Muse's latest single, Uprising.

Let me tell you, it is very 'different' from the Muse that we know.

Matthew 'raps' in this song, very cool and the melody is catchy. I'm not lying.

The guitar is very simple yet very artistic.

As for the bass, it's really fat.

Matthew = A Genius

P/S: "Music is all about feelings, you think it fits, then it's okay." - Grace Chong

Extraordinary

2009-08-01T03:00:00.000-07:00

Mother,
There's only you,
Since I was born,

There's no one who can replace you,
There's no one who can replace you,

You are so magical,
You make my life a miracle,
You turn my darkest sky,
Into a light,
You are so magical,
You make my life a miracle,
You turn my darkest sky,
Into a light,

Extraordinary,

Father,
There's only you,
Since I was born,

There's no one who can replace you,
There's no one who can replace you,

You are so magical,
You make my life a miracle,
You turn my darkest sky,
Into a light,
You are so magical,
You make my life a miracle,
You turn my darkest sky,
Into a light,

Extraordinary.

Harus pantas.

2009-07-29T19:21:00.001-07:00

Physics di peringkat universiti payah ya. agak jubo di situ. harap dapat back up dengan segera.

Calculus ok, it's my favourite thing. ^^

English best, lecturer aku cantik.

Computer has the best classes over here, laugh-non-stop kind of classes.

P/S: "Guane jig?" - Alif (gila kelakar wei!)

alright.

I belong to you.

2009-07-29T18:59:00.002-07:00

it's like this.

i want you. so i get to know you, make friends with you, take care of you, walk with you, share laughter and et cetera.

we get closer. and closer.

but, there is a but.

when we get to the stage where we'd say "I belong to you", i isolate myself from you.

i don't feel like knowing you, i don't take care of you, i don't walk with you, i don't share the laughter with you and so on.

i feel like vomitting whenever i see you.

what the fuck is going on?

i can't explain myself.

maybe i still haven't found the right one yet.

P/S : "Umar, what you give, you get back. Bear that in mind." - Zizah

alright.

Menang

2009-07-25T07:22:00.000-07:00

Tunggu,
Biar aku tunggu,
Kemenangan,
Pasti milikku,
Lekas bangun dari situ,
Jangan buang masa aku,

Siapa dirimu,
Hati yang ku benci,
Siapa dirimu,
Hati yang ku benci,

Lemas,
Ditelan masa,
Terleka,
Dan terus terlena,
Masa untuk kita ubah,
Dan aku pasti kita menang,

Siapa dirimu,
Hati yang ku benci,
Siapa dirimu,
Hati yang ku benci,

Extraordinary Love

2009-07-22T19:24:00.000-07:00

Muse,

i uhh. .can't help to be amazed whenever i listen to your music.

United States of Eurasia, fucking good. really.

the middle part; strings everywhere, arabic scales up and down, riffs. ohh man, this is just too fucking good.

Muse, WORDS FAIL ME.

alright.

The Resistance

2009-07-06T03:09:00.001-07:00

wow, wow and wow.

MUSE will be releasing the fifth album this fcuking september!!!.

lala~~~~~~~.....(just imagine a choir band for that word)

amazing, magnificent, majestic, awesome, the best, ultra great. THERE'S NO WORD THAT CAN EVEN BEGIN TO DESCRIBE HOW GENIUS MUSE IS.

-WORDS FAIL ME-

being honest, i feel like SCREAMING when i saw their track listing. so majestic. so beautiful. so MUSE.

*MUSE*

ok, moving on. =.="

i had a great time over here, loads of friends if compared to last time, good facilities, comfortable apartment and hell yeah, just now i studied physics and one thing that i find about physics is that i can easily grab the concept. my secret?. it's because i really love physics. and math.

it was tiring and all that but overall, it was good. i don't care about having clicks here and there, all i care is to be friends with my housemate and my classmates.

MUSE and Jay Chou keep me alive over here.

that's all folks.

alright.

Random

2009-06-22T05:57:00.000-07:00

i'm back in Kuantan. i miss my family like dem. friends, the usual-faces, my house, my piano and guitar, almost everything.

going to UM is really a precious experience for me. it made me realize that the time for me to really grow up and be an adult has come. it opened my eyes on many things. friends. family. making decisions. loneliness. survival. the inner strength in you. too many to be mentioned.

to be honest, i am a loner at UM. i don't have a friend. i don't have any friends there. just couples of hye-and-bye friends. for the first time in my life, i have no one to talk to, i felt lonely. i can say most of my friends now are moving along with their own lives. we are separated. i guess this is life, friends do come and go. anyways, it was a terrible first week for me at UM, i seriously have no one. i eat alone. i walk alone. i sit alone. i was alone.

there was this time, i was sitting alone and eating at the cafeteria, i often see groups of people eating together. i wanted to feel what it's like to be in that group. it could be fun as people say "the more the merrier". well my point here is, you gotta be friendly to people when you go to any uni. i personally think that i am a shy person, that's why i don't really have friends over there. i will be your friend IF you make the first move. seriously, go ask all of my buddies, ask them "How do you get to know with Umar?". i'm sure 90% of them will say, "well, i was the one who started the conversation with him."

as time passes by, by the second week, my mind realized something, a fact which is quite true to me. i realized that it is time for me to be independent. and now, i just don't care about getting the 'huhahuha' friends in uni because my parents send me to uni to gain knowledge and get the degree, not to hangout and having fun. they invest a big amount of money to send me there. i shouldn't be wasting their money, no, hell no.

i guess that's all about UM.

moving on, last few days my cousins went to cherating beach for holidays and my sister and i paid them a visit. we had fun. mak teh nina ariel apit kak tie were there. apit is immensely funny. paling aku tak boleh bla bila part kat cendol. we were waiting for our cendols and came this one man serving our cendols to us. apit, while taking the cendols from that guy, spontaneously say "lawalah hensem.". serious, aku rasa macam nak ambik perut kambing pastu gigit (okay lame). tak boleh blah. memang aku gelak kaw-kaw kat situ. apit oh apit. on the way back, we went to the beach and apit out of the blue wanted to eat kfc. he eleh, out of all things, kfc?. klakar. ^_^

so that's it for now, i'll do more blogging if i have the time.

i'm bringing my lappy to uni. so, expect to see me on the weekends.

alright.

Awake

2009-06-21T09:54:00.001-07:00

Sorry, gotta remove this one.

Untuk Dia.

2009-05-20T07:49:00.000-07:00

tinggi harapanku,
untukmu,
tak sangka separuh jalan,
jika semua memori kita diletakkan dalam cakera,
akan aku mainkannya setiap hari,
cantik,
engkau memang cantik,
izinkan aku menatap wajahmu lagi,
kau pijak hatiku lagi,

biar aku lupakan engkau,
asal aku tak sama denganmu,
jangan cemari apa yang dah ada.

OMG

2009-05-15T05:33:00.000-07:00

ohh my, i open my lappy and guess what?

55 UNREAD EMAIL !!!

59 FB NOTIFICATIONS!!!

iwas like, "the hell?. .dem !. .left for a day and. .dem seriously. ."

wakaka, gonna open them. .

Smack right in the face

2009-05-11T03:18:00.000-07:00

"If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a hundred days of sorrow."

man. .that is something to me. .

A smack right in the face. .

padan me. .big time. .

Sunday, 10th of May 2009

2009-05-10T09:00:00.000-07:00

J : i thought you were having fun with your bandmates, i saw them. .

U: so if u saw my bandmates in Kelantan, i am gonna be there with them is it?

J: yeah. .it's possible. .it could be. .

U: . . . . . . . . . . . . . . *i said to myself, "the ****??"*

seriously, saya agak terkilan. .i know you are clever enough to understand this, right?. .everything's in sick dumb ****ed up situation. .those lines, including everything, keep on repeating in my thoughts and in my mind. .

P/S : despite all this bullshits, i'm waiting. .that is if you didn't forget about it. .
Period.

OK GO !

2009-05-07T07:41:00.000-07:00

it's not the band, duhh. .

well i don't have any specific reasons actually right now. .just feel like typing it. .

but first thing first, emm last few days or should i say last week, there's been a chaotic mess in my chatbox. .it all started with a dude who obviously is not happy with my song. .

so my advice to that dude is, please, if u think that u are better than me, please, do write a song. .but i seriously think that he will not take this challenge from me since he doesn't even know what's an octave is. .aww, that is so lame and moronic of you to comment on people's songs. .seriously, now only i know that moron people will never get satisfied with other people's achievement or doings. .moronic will always find a way to shout bullshits comments. .period.

ok, to the brighter part. ^_^

I CHANGED MY MIND, I'M GOING TO UM. .

lazy to edit this post, so i hope it's clear now. .

i actually got three offers to date. .Matriks, Universiti Malaya and UNITEN. .out of these three, the one that has the highest chance for me to get my ass to is UNITEN. .well, i choose UNITEN because of its facilities that it has. .i've been there like twice and so far, i am quite impressed and satisfied with all its facilities. .what i mean by facilities is UNITEN's buildings are kinda new, clean and look very tempting for students to study at. .the cafeteria is above par, their computer labs are good and one thing i kinda cannot wait to be at is their apartment. .from what i can see, the apartment is for four people to stay at once. .and have four rooms which means one person per room. .that is like sooo good bcuz u can have your own room, do whatever you like with it for let say 5 years?. .and i really really do hope that i can get many chinese and maybe indian friends, i just wanna feel what is it like to mix around with other races and i can feel that it is gonna be exciting. .and hopefully i'll get a girlfriend there. .of course it's not my aim but it could be good, you know, have someone to talk to when you are like bored or something. .but anyways, chinese are welcome to knock my door. . ^_^

uuuuhhh~~, interesting eh??. .

next, i can say many of my friends are going to matriks this monday. .i admit, i do feel like kinda left out whenever i think about it because i'm still gonna stuck here in kuantan. .sigh. .and to all of my friends, do not change your phone number. .guys, who knows, maybe 10 years later, i'm gonna invite you all to my wedding right?. .

and, i bought a new lappy , it's Compaq and it is my first lappy and very happy for it's functionality. .getting used to it. .

lastly, gonna have a good time this saturday night and sunday. .sunday i'm having smartniaga and what my sense telling me is this year's smartniaga is not gonna be THAT good. .no way it is gonna be as good as the old days. .haaaa, what a sweet memories. .

so, see ya this Sunday !

Cheers,
Umar.

Chromatic Expression

2009-04-22T21:22:00.000-07:00

let me elaborate a bit about this song.

i wrote this song when i was in F3, wayyyy back then. that time, i wrote for myself, i never thought of forming a band with anyone since i don't know who can play this and that. this song is in A Major, so it's quite happy but i made it look like it's kinda sad by writing pessimistic lyrics.

this song is entirely inspired by the magnificent, one and only, Muse. (heheh, a bit "over", don't you think? well, whatever.). i name it 'Chromatic Expression' because the riffs of this song have chromatic scale.

the verse is 'dark', 'down', 'failing', 'giving up'. but, the pre-chorus is like a small little hope trying to emerge and finally the chorus is very positive if it's compared to the verses. the chorus is like the 'sunshine' of this song.

this song is 4.41 minutes long.

i would seriously love to put this song in my blog but it is very 'raw', haven't done the mixing process yet. so, i'll just post the lyrics here.

Chromatic Expression

My trust in you,
Overused and abused,
Life just carries on,
When you're dead and gone,
When you're dead and gone.

Your gaze beams a hole in me,
Your gaze beams a hole in me.

I feel my whole world,
Crushed, destroyed completely,
When you're out of here,
Hold you in my arms,
Cast away your tears,
Fight away your fears.

One day,
You will pay,
All the price,
It won't suffice.

Your gaze beams a hole in me,
Your gaze beams a hole in me.

I feel my whole world,
Crushed, destroyed completely,
When you're out of here,
Hold you in my arms,
Cast away your tears,
Fight away your fears.

Written by : Umar

Ini random lah sayang. . .

2009-04-07T01:21:00.000-07:00

see, that picture right there, is what we call "random". .that's my cousin, we did cam whoring. .

okay, for the first paragraph, i'm gonna write in malay, i didn't write malay for quite some time now, i feel awkward when i write malay now, i gotta practice, so let's get it started.

That blue 'creature', i made it myself, inspired by ben ten's diamondhead~. another random. .

sekarang ni, jiwa rasa sikit kosong (uish, i feel poyo laa to write in malay). .duduk rumah, tgk tv, besarkan bontot, msg with busuk, main gitar, keluar sekali sekala, itu saja. .kadang-kadang rasa jugak sunyi, bila sunyi je, ajak keluar dengan jollene, itupun bukanlah selalu. .rasa macam nak buat je benda yang aku takkan dapat buat banyak kali sekarang ni, macam bungee jump ke, apa apa pon jadi lah. .
okay, there's another random, that's 'mica', my cutest little cat~. mica~~

shit man~, enough talking in malay, i really do feel awkward writing in malay~. .well, need to spice things up over here. .in this post i'm gonna talk a lil' bit about my songs that i wrote and about my 'new' addiction.

that picture, that is me, with my brother's acoustic guitar, i use that to write songs.

i bought a. . . . .okay, now i feel like blushing to say this~. . .i bought a. . . .i bought a gameboy micro. . .haha, u can laugh all u want at me~. . .i mean, i bought it for fun, i am not that serious on it after all and the price is quite shocking, it is very cheap for a gaming console. .that's why i bought it. . .anyways, i'm playing pokemon now and my charizard is level 42 now~. .hehe. . .i mean, come on guys~. .it is not something bad and there's nothing to be ashamed of when u play games rite?. .i mean it's like temporary satisfaction, after i go to further studies, that thing could be gone for good. .so, i don't see anything kiddo about it~. .and aunty ling once said to me, it's something sounds like this "oma u should do things that u want this holiday before going to college". .hell yeah aunty, i'll do that. .hah. .

still remember this busuk?. .

ok, music time. .in the past few months, i've been creating songs. .i write it for fun, at least i do have something to do when i have free time during this nothingness-months-before-going-for-college. .i created like 5-6 songs, the songs varies, love to politics, u get what i mean. .let me list u the name of the song that i created:

-Chromatic Expression
-Wonderful
-Hati yang ku benci
-Trauma
-Awake (it's ours, not mine~)

well, that is me. .need not elaborations. .

from these, Wonderful and Awake are the two songs that i wrote about my life and very meaningful to me. .Wonderful is about not giving up even if u fall down, parents got ur back, life is wonderful and it is wonderful to know that u love someone that is really important to u, someone that u care a lot about. .then Awake, Awake i got it after i dreamt of something (this dream, i can't tell about it, it's personal), then i told her about it and she wants to work on it too. .this song is about us entirely. .this song is ours, no one else, just u and me, ours. .

okie dokie, i got nothing to say already. .it's enough. .

P/S: thank you to those who wished me happy birthday; my busuk, alif, azraai, aishah, nina, my sisters, and so many more, i just couldn't put it here, but u guys will always be remembered by me. .

Cheers,
Umar.

Earth Hour 2009

2009-03-18T20:47:00.000-07:00

This 28th of March 2009, turn off your lights for an hour starting from 8.30pm until 9.30pm. let us make something that will embed on our mind forever.

I am in.

Be in it, make it a "one crowded hour".

Cheers,
Umar

I thank you, God.

2009-03-12T10:42:00.000-07:00

I got my result, it's pretty good, i'm really satisfied with what i get. most of us scored like hell in SPM. and studying engineering will definitely be my next main focus.

this is my results;

Bahasa Melayu - A1
Bahasa Inggeris - A1
Sejarah - A1
Mathematics - A1
Additional Mathematics - A1
Physics - A1
Lukisan Kejuruteraan - A1

the other three, just B's. Period.

I would like to thank these wonderful people;
God, Mak dan Ayah, my family, cikgu Rohana, "Miss" Azora, cikgu Mahyuddin, cikgu Anita, Pn. Tan, Madam Lau, Miss Irene, Uztaz Alias, cikgu Syazwani, cikgu Noni, Mr. Tan, cikgu Sara, cikgu Rosli, cikgu Rahmat, Apit, Fazrol, Chee Khong, Adam, Adib and lastly to my one and only "bestest" friend, Yee Jun.

To Wen Jun: thanks a lot for the concern, you are way cuter and more beautiful than last time. Study hard this year and I believe you can do better than me.

Thank you and Xie xie and Terima kasih.

Cheers,
Umar.

Breathe in deep..and cleanse away my sins..

2009-02-24T07:29:00.001-08:00

Di luarnya tenang tapi Tuhan saja tahu...

Tapir depan mata tak nampak, kutu di Marikh nampak...

2009-02-24T07:29:00.000-08:00

Di luarnya tenang tapi Tuhan saja tahu...

我正在学习中文

2009-02-11T04:56:00.000-08:00

today, i went to a pusat bahasa somewhere in kuantan and i was looking for a mandarin language class. i'll be taking the lesson for about 3/4 months and will end just before i go to a university/college. just nice.

why i wanna learn mandarin?. emm, most probably because it is cool for a malay to speak chinese?. well, at least for me. i dunno, i find it quite cool. and uhh, the classes will occupy my time during this long period of holidays. it's better than just sit at home and laze around. u know, doing nothing and all that. at least i have something to focus on. and after few months, i can speak mandarin! the uncle said it is possible for a human being to speak mandarin within 3 months. i'm gonna learn how to speak, but not to read or write. it's complicated. to plunge myself into something new, out of the blue. you feel me?.

i think that's about it. anyway, do not waste your time guys. at least do something while waiting yourself to be absorbed into a university/college. and don't forget about the upu thingy.

you know, i did the job hunting, and it didnt work out. i want to work. i want the experience. i don't want the money, just want the feeling of working, how does it feels to work. but nahh, it think i'll pass. i'm fed up with job hunting. but there's a but, let's say all of the sudden, a shop calls me for work, then i'll go to work. it's just that now, i'm not in the mood of working.

ok, ciao.

Cheers,
Umar.

P/S: busuk~. . .

How can we win? When fools can be kings. Don't waste your time or time will waste you.

2009-01-15T08:00:00.000-08:00

hello there,
i'm back from Youth 09'. it was a *bomb*. i never been to a fair that is made by youth for youth before. it was fun, we walked here and there, buy cheap clothes (but the quality is superb), did "coffee talk, hawker woks". and got many photoshoots going on that day, hah i never thought i would do that crazy stuff.

here is some of the pics that i snapped;

The faces of youth of Malaysia.

The faces of youth of Malaysia.

A good one indeed. but i can't agree on it totally, i mean it is all up to you. if u work hard enough and know how to grab opportunities, you're on the game buddy. and, remember, knowledge comes first. to win the race, knowledge is the best ride that you can ever get.

Cheating in exams. well, don't cheat on every exams. and don't copy everything from your friends. exams are for you, to each everyone of us. to evaluate how good you are, to test whether you listen to what your teacher taught you or not. don't cheat a lot. work hard and study smart if you want to be successful. cheating on some questions is still tolerable tho.

Politics. yes, it is an interesting thing to talk about. Malaysia's political scene is full of spices and most recently is about the members of Pakatan Rakyat, fight with each other. how pathetic. this clearly shows that they can never administrate our country. look at Barisan, doing just fine and getting along very well. we, the youth, are going to be the future leaders of this very own land. please, wake up and be competitive to other races. don't just think having fun all the time.

no offense but i don't respect women who smokes. sorry to say but i don't see any pride in you anymore if you smoke. i hate it.

What the heck?. how daring to ask such question. i feel embarrassed after reading this banner. man, you should have shut yourself up and just keep it to yourself. it is a lot better like that.

this picture below, really caught my attention. i stalled for a moment after i saw this banner. it is 'original' to me.

"What is the best way to gain happiness?". ohh my, it is a big question mark right over there. everyone has their own way to achieve satisfaction, excitement and i am pretty sure that the way they execute it, will never be the same each time. me?. i find happiness through my family. i find happiness through music. through Muse. and my friends give happiness to me. before i saw this banner, i never ask myself this question. i never did. it somehow makes me appreciate better the meaning of happiness.

i'll end it here. i'll put on more pic on the next post. blogspot is a moron, can't do too many things at once.

Cheers,
Umar.

I'm off to Youth Malaysia 09' with my band for a gig. Come and join us at PWTC this Friday. Cheers.

2009-01-07T09:01:00.000-08:00

A New Tortoise

2008-12-31T08:51:00.000-08:00

let us give a warm welcome to 2009. heh i'm quite shocked, time is so fast nowadays, dashing towards the end. to me, 2008 can be considered one of my best year in my life. many things happened in this particular year. you name it; sadness, happiness, laughter, joy, bliss. if i were to list all of them, it won't fit this blog page.

i feel kinda awkward when i'm writing this post. maybe it's because i didn't online that much since SPM is over. my life is boring right now, i'm bored stiff. all that i do during my holidays is just play my guitar, listen to Muse, talking to panda and taking my license. just that. that's it.

resolution. do you guys have any?. i think i have few of them. this resolution, i can say that, it is my 'first time'. before this, i don't take this that seriously. i mean, i just get through the year without any proper plannings whatsoever. anyway. i have some resolutions, they are;

1. i will be patient and get a nice grip on my emotions. i will not get mad easily. in other words, i'm not a hot tempered guy this year. please.

2. i will plan before i act. like, i already have in mind what i am going to study in the university. most probably Quantity Surveying bcuz it involves physics, math and LK. i said 'most probably' because i might consider other things such as job opportunity.

3. overcome some 'disorder' that i possess.

i believe that is all. i don't want to make too many resolutions because i know myself, i know my limit. if i have too many, i won't be able to achieve every single one of them. so let me keep it simple like it is now.

car license. i'm pissed by the service that the pmc or kmc, (whatever about the name) gave to me. they booked for the static test on 23rd of December 2008 (that was last year, hah) but, they cancelled it in the last minute. they told me to wait for their call. i waited for too long that i can't stand it anymore. i told my pakcik about it and he went there to settle things down. this time, they twist the fact, "kami tunggu panggilan daripada encik.". what the heck?. stupid moron.

ahah, about Muse!!!. ohh my, my blood is rushing all over my veins right now. Muse. Muse. Muse. they are going to release their fifth album this year!. i just cannot wait. i cannot wait. and, i told panda about the album and she's looking forward to it. Muse is going to release a 'Symphonic Monster', the hardest song ever. just reading the name, 'Symphonic Monster', gives me a bloody spine chill, goosebumps. it's a three section song, comprises of different genres and it would probably lasts for 13 minutes. i believe piano, guitar, bass, drums, synth, are gonna blend into one and boom, there you have it, a 'Symphonic Monster'. who would have thought of that, a 'Symphonic Monster'??. my god. Matt, you are such a Genius. i think i'm running out of words now, so i better leave it here, for now. because to me, there is no word that can even begin to describe how powerful Muse is, how brilliant Muse is. ok Oma, enough~.

ohh and i cracked the code given by Muse to their fans!!!. i solved it myself. i feel special.

guitar and my band. i finally found the tone that i find it quite similar to what was Matt's tone when he was on the Absolution Tour. but the tone that i found is like 4 years behind, way back. i'm trying to find the guitar tone he is having now. i would describe his current tone as 'crispy on the treble, punching on the midrange and fat on the bass'. hell, no one can achieve that. only Matt does. maybe the pickup of his guitar holds the key to that tone. anyway, my band is better than last time and we're now 'trying' to write some songs. but be warned, we are not gonna make music as a living. just for pure excitement.

i think i'll stop now.

Happy New Year to all!

Cheers,
Umar.

p/s: it was a meaningful chat indeed. i poured it out to u. and hopefully, we'll find unlimited joy on this new year eh?. now, we start a new chapter.

it's finally over.

2008-12-02T03:30:00.000-08:00

i feel quite lost after SPM. i just feel empty. i really do not like this kind of feelings, it makes you feel uneasy. anyway, i'm glad it's over. finally, it's over. . .

See you all soon, byebye!

2008-10-23T08:18:00.000-07:00

this is my last post. actually it's a bit sad.

well, in this post, i'm gonna write about people that cast away my fears towards SPM, things that make me feel not afraid of SPM and life after SPM.

first, the people that i love, that is important to me and people that eliminates my fear;

Apit.
apit, i just wanna say thanks a lot to you. i really appreciate what u told me and that talk was meaningful to me. frankly, i feel like SPM is just pieces of papers after we end our chat that night, i dont feel that afraid anymore. fuck, you really eliminate my fears man. thanks.

Abang Atan.
without that hug, i can bet that i would explode in any moment. but thank God you were there at that time. i feel the load fell off my back. so lega now.

Abang Shafiq dan Bapak.
thanks a lot. abang shafiq gave me the spirit before he went back to Bentong. i don't feel scared of SPM that much anymore. i'll just relax and chill. breathe in deep.

Cikgu Faridah.
cikgu, thanks a lot to you. you really give me the light of hope, calmness and spirit to me. that talk was meaningful to me, really, it helps. i never thought i should be feeling happy to sit for SPM. "oma, rasa seronok bila nak jawab SPM. . .". the moment i heard the word 'seronok', i feel like bursting into tears but i just chill and mute myself. seriously, i never thought of that word.

Mr. Tan.
Sir, without you, i am 100% sure that i cannot excel in my studies especially in Addmath. and you gave me lots of tips on how to prepare and answer SPM questions.

Cikgu Noni.
cikgu memang menaikkan semangat saya terutamanya untuk menjawab BM. "alaah, SPM tu kacang je. . .". ayat tu memang mengurangkan ketakutan saya terhadap SPM. dan aku rasa apa yang cikgu cakap memang betul.

Emak.
my mom always give support to me especially during exam time. she is the hope and give light to me. i don't feel that scared anymore.

Pn. Lau.
she is like the mother to most of us. i believe she cares about her students by heart. she loves to teach, love it with passion. it is a rare event for her not to be in class. always be there for us.

ms. piggy.
i feel like writing your name here but i don't want you to feel bad or anything. but, never mind that. she gives me the inspiration to study hard. concern about me . always be there for me whenever i am down. sometimes she makes me pissed off. but most of the time, she makes me feel wonderful.

one of the things that make me feel uplifted and not scared of SPM is a song from Muse called Invincible. there is this part of the song, the lyrics is nice.
this is the snippet of the lyrics.

"Don't give up the fight,
you will be all right,
because there is no one like you,
in the Universe."

okay, here comes the part where i find it both interesting and sad;

My life after SPM is over;

- no more text book

- no more the good old baju sekolah

- no more breakfast early in the morning

- no more homework

- no more BIG laughs with Zulfikri.

- i can't cabut Fazrol's bulu anymore.

- gonna miss my teachers

- no more chit-chat with Pn. Azora

- no more canteen

- gonna miss my friends.

- no more studying

- can't tease Alif anymore

- will talk less with Adib

- no need to wake up early

- do not need ties anymore

- can't laugh out loud in class

- no more listening to radio while going to school

i believe this is the end now. before i go, please pray for me and also to all of my friends so that we can achieve great results and excel in life as well. forgive me if i have done anything wrong to you all.

P/S: quite frustrated now, but never mind. .it'll subside soon. .take care sunshine. .

Selamat Hari Raya

2008-09-30T07:55:00.000-07:00

finally, raya is here. and that is a Yahoo! for me. actually, not really. i do not want to over enjoy it till i forget everything that i studied.

so, i'm going back to my kampung the 2nd day of raya and maybe i'll be back in kuantan the very next day. don't want to be there that long since i have lots to study.

so, i wish u all, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maff Zahir dan Batin.

forgive me if i did something wrong to you guys. and good luck in the upcoming SPM.

Cheers,

Umar

P/S: be the first and if possible, please hold on throughout the night. .

Sex in pain, keeps me alive, yes.

2008-09-25T07:56:00.000-07:00

just ignore the title, don't take it seriously.

that picture up there was taken after our act during Teacher's Day 08'. i suddenly stumble across it just now.

i changed my mind. i won't do any video due to "lack of determination and insufficient equipment". i feel quite frustrated lately. anyway, do watch the song. click it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qgyD2rXcdeU

alright, see you then.

Cheers,

Umar

Huggable, Sleepable, Comatoseable

2008-09-24T16:39:00.000-07:00

yes!!. finally i manage to swim through it. some are easy but some are just too damn hard for me. well generally, i think im better this time than the previous one. so in this post, i'm gonna talk about my trial and some other stuff. staying up late; it pays off man.

so, i'll review each paper that i took.

Bahasa Melayu

yeah man, i do believe that i kick ass in the karangan section.

everyone in my class did actually.

i was very nervous when i get the paper.

i fear that i would be blank when i'm about to write something.

but luckily, "u just have to believe in yourself and write".

thanks ya.

Bahasa Inggeris

essay just a so-so.

poems and story brilliantly answered.

summary like shit, i never feel this hard before. why did they issue it? sigh.
novel ok.

it's not as good as before la.

Sejarah
i nearly cried la when i get to know my marks.

i feel pelik why i can't score.
anyway,
it's a "byebye".
enough said.

Pendidikan Islam
heh, i thought it would be easy but turns out the other way leh.

there was this section about Quran verses.

u have to know/memorise them but i do not.

so, i left them blank.

(^_^)

Physics

the night before it, i really study and stay up till late at night.

and it really pays off.

seriously.

i was shaking happy when i receive my paper 1 result.

BUT, it's not that i'm proud or anything.

i just wanna share it with u.

and i hope that my P2 and P3 also as high as the P1

i really hope i got it high.

Mathematics

when i was writing this post, i called my friend and he told me something.

and you know what that is?. i got 94% for Math.

wahlaweh!!

i "bang" hard rite?.

looking forward for SPM.

Additional Mathematics

my forte'.

my love.

it's my favourite subject besides Physics.

anyway, i didn't do that well in P2.

but it's enough for an A.

and there's a one who laughed at me getting low.

it's okay buddy, after all that i taught u and stuff, u do deserve to laugh at me right?

thanks but no thanks.

"u shoo him away from ur thoughts k?. .and shoot him away with ur marks. ."

what a quote from u la.

it really gives me hope in kicking "someone" ass.

Lukisan Kejuruteraan

aha!

i believe i am better this time.

i just tembak some like "tangent".

don't get the concept.

but, it's more than okay la actually.

Chemistry

im WAY better this time.

trust me, i won't fail.

but just the paper 2.

i find it very hard la

i even have the time to colour my periodic table of elements since i have so much time left during paper 2.

sigh.

but paper 3, damn! i NEVER feel that easy before in my life.

i answered it with "colours".

EST

the first part quite tricky.

and the essay, i really like what i wrote.

i think it would be higher this time.

this is my Periodic Table of Elements.

heheh. =b

so, that is all people. conclusion, i think i would kick ass in this exam, much better than my recent exam. i actually deserve it because i studied and i did it smartly. guys, do not study hard but smartly. and do not give up if u fail or something. to me, i prefer to fail in trial than in SPM.

and i'm quite happy with my life at the moment. =D. there's more light to it. i promise, i won't do that la. it's just that i'm joking with u wei, don't take it seriously k. "that" thing is only for me, i won't share it with anyone. i promise u. miss me, msg me.

ohh before i forget, guys, this raya please use it as the time to study. i'll enjoy myself the first two days. then i'll start my engine back. just an opinion from me.

okay, i'm done!.

see u later eh.

Cheers,

Umar

*my combed hair*

Tina oh Tina...

2008-09-02T07:24:00.000-07:00

i'm buzy with studying since trial is just few days away..i might not be around for these few weeks..i have to study..study for my own sake..and i'll be back after the trial and that is like, 3 weeks from now??..heh..gonna miss this blog..

studying...

last few snaps..did these after pissa.. ; )

Cheers,
Umar

P/S: i think i've improved in chemistry tremendously (for my level laa)..now i can do lots of question which i can't do in the past...ohh btw!, Tina, its fun talking to you but you sombong and jual mahal with me!.. =b..haha!....and let us keep "that" only between us ya?.. =D

Sayonara~

"A Cheesy Unity on Two?"

2008-08-28T04:14:00.000-07:00

it is not my problem...
i didn't say a word...
i never did...
i never did...
who told you to agree?...
i didn't say anything...
why do you agree?...
i didn't say anything...
why are you mad at me?...
i didn't say anything...
who told them to tebal their muka?...
why are you so excited?...
why eh?...
funny, how pathetic...
now you're blaming me...

it's okay...
i know...
aku tak akan jadi pandai walaupun aku tak pergi...
so, why bother to go, really?...
at least, i am well-conscious and i realize that 'it' is coming, fast...
i believe i am not clever and ready enough to face 'it'...
ARE YOU?...
i do not care if you wanna give me a splendid isolation, i just don't...
why?...
because i didn't say anything...

A Cheesy Unity on Two???...

sigh...

Cheers,
Umar

P/S : "don't let it affect yourself and your mood..."..no, it is not going to affect me..thanks ya..

Another 25 to go. . .

2008-08-24T05:02:00.000-07:00

school will re-open tomorrow.. shit..

anyway, i'm here to share with you something..

it happened on the 14th of August 2008, 4:10pm..

i was playing my guitar and of course, i played the magnificent MUSE.. XD ..i planned to record my playings and i did record it..and i played the guitar and message with ms. piggy at the same time..yeah we chat and chat for quite a long time..all of the sudden, while i was playing the guitar, my phone blinked again and again..i thought it was the alarm..but after taking a closer look, it was an incoming call..and it was ms.piggy..whoa!..i was like, shocked..never, before this, she called me whatsoever..pfff..i answered the call and for 4 seconds, no sound whatsoever.. @_@ ..i was blank for awhile..i stared at my phone, idle..i called her back and without my expectation, she answered..

Umar: "did you call me just now?..why?"

Ms.piggy: "yeah yeah, sorry sorry!!!..i accidentally call you!!..i pushed the wrong button!!..sorry sorry!!! (she snorted)"

Umar: "oh yeah yeah, sure..ok bye bye.."

hahah, it was a very gelabah conversation i tell ya..she panicked a bit..i can tell by the way she talked to me in that call..so do i actually..and your giggles are kinda cute..heh it was cute..

and it happened while i was playing Starlight..i have the recorded video..and the "hello-moment" is on the video..but i stop to record it when i called her back.. XD

here it is;

i cut my hair today, it is better i think..of course, it is shorter..i look more 'mature'..haha..

miss me, message me...

another 25 to go. . .

Cheers,
Umar

P/S:

i bought Hujan and quite impressing actually but i do not like BAST in this album, it kinda lost its touch..the guitar solo effect sounded really cheap..but this album opens a new chapter for the band..well done..

To Ms. Piggy

2008-08-19T05:40:00.000-07:00

I'm away for two days only..I'll be back after that..be a sweet, kind girl while I am not around ok?..I am gonna miss u..take care, my dear..

miss me, message me...

Loads of love,
Umar

21.90

2008-08-17T22:34:00.000-07:00

school's holidays are here..yahoo!..now its the time for me to sleep a lot and rest a bit..but still, i have to study because SPM is just only few days away...anyway, Lee Chong Wei got silver medal for us..well, at least he got something for us..

speaking of which, haha yesterday i whammed my so-called iron safe with a sledge hammer and a screw driver to retreive something that is valueable to me..i whammed it because i lost the key and it remains locked for like 2 years..so i have a purpose and it was fun.. =D..i smashed it until the locks broke apart, it took me about 10 minutes..i opened and took what's inside..

AND, without my expectations, i met again with my beloved Gold medal which was given to me when i was in Form 2..ahh, im walking down a sweet, loving memory lane now.. =D...heh the Gold medal was awarded to me during the SMART's 2005 Sports Day..on the medal, there are lines embedded on it, it says:

KEJOHANAN OLAHRAGA
SMART KE-37 2005
L/CAKERA (LC)
JOHAN

yeah, i was the undisputed champion..yay!.. =D..why do i feel so bangga with it?..here's why;

1. It was my maiden participation in that particular game.
2. I beat ALL the guys from other forms (in my catagory); Form 1 and even Form 3..hell yeah, i was in Form 2 that time. =D
3. It was the last event for the particular game. now, it is gone since then.
4. I was the underdog.

my farthest throw in that game was 21.90 metre..everyone else was like 17-18 metres only..my strength tops them..haha =D

Cheers,

Umar

My trials and tribulations

2008-08-11T04:56:00.000-07:00

I tak puas hati with this one..I really, REALLY tak puas hati..aku rase sangat terganggu kerana kau..so please stop avoiding me and act like normal..i feel annoyed you know..I am trying to make friends but obviously you read me at the wrong page....

You're such a mess
7 hours feeling dead,
Your phoney act,
Does not make me feel sad,

You will not find it in me,
It is better,
Wake up in reality,
You're revealing all your shames again...

dah habis dah

2008-08-04T05:20:00.000-07:00

i never thought my previous post would cause such little havoc inside out..i really never thought about that...i feel a bit worried because i fear my teachers would read my blog and develop wrong perceptions towards me..anyway, they can read my blog..i welcome them with open arms..

the thing here is, i do not wanna use this blog/people to think that i use this blog as one of my arsenal to bombard people around me..it never crossed my mind..if i ever offended some people who had read my blog, i did not mean it..i'm sorry because these few days back, i feel something isn't right..i believe that i somehow violate my motto of life, "Less is More"..

so, this is my last post regarding to that black/dark incident..you know, i welcome any comments from you guys, it is healthy to post such comments because you channel your thoughts instead of just keeping a tight grip onto it..it could lead you into something nasty if you do not express your thoughts on someone/something..it could demolish you in and out..

and to Lily, i really appreciate your views on that issue and i would love you to visit my blog often because you might have your own thoughts about issues that i might be posting..i welcome your comments with arms wide open..i really do..and i do not hold a grudge whatsoever on you after you commented one of my post..i do not because i believe the term "free speech" does apply in this short, colourful life..my teacher once said "you should have stress in your life in an apropriate amount and manner"..

dah habis dah..

P/S: habishh daa.. =D..btw, if my previous/upcoming post's title doesn't make any sense and has the ", then it is an anagram..and nice fringe tho.. =D

"A Rounded Dusty Notion"

2008-08-02T22:34:00.000-07:00

have you read panic urine wish a.k.a generic linkup?..does it offend you?..do you feel offended?..i know it had caused mix reactions and "offended" some people..since i posted that thing, i receive both positive and negative feedback from Tom, Dick and Harry..and there is a particular one that caught my attention..this particular one does not agree with my opinion and she kept telling me to stop doing such things and start thinking about other people's feeling..i accept his/her view with an open mind..it is her right to pour his/her heart out..

however, in this post, i am not gonna back off and run away and hide..instead, i am going to write back and respond to what that particular one said in his/her comment..

one by one, step by step..

"i know that the particular person had done wrong
but u have to remember that person too is a human being no matter how bad
is still a human being"

- ok before that, bear in mind that; stealing = a crime, killing = a crime..if that is the case, Aerial Sharon who had killed thousands of people regardless their race and religion, should be declared not guilty and we should give him a second chance because he is just a human being too rite?..we, make mistakes..we are born to make them rite?..so after reading this post, we should make friends and support those Israel citizens and give them a second chance..pity them..they are humans rite?..so please i beg you to give them a chance..so, no hard feelings with them after this ok?..ohh! not to forget G.Bush who discriminates and conquers and kills many people including children in Iraq just to suck up their oil..please forgive and forget him, he is just a human being no matter how bad it is..people who commit crimes should be forgiven definitely because they are just humans like us..

"well..you're saying all this because that person is not a friend of yours."

- i still remember when i was a kid, there was this kid, a friend of mine, stole my finest and my favourite toy from me..it was an action figure of Gundam..when i realize that something is not right, i went to him and ask him about it because he came to my house and we shared toys and suddenly, the toy is gone..so, he should be the suspect right?..anyway, when i have a strong base proof, i came to him and ask him politely "kau ada ambik tak mainan aku?"..he kencing me by saying that he didnt know anything about it..i turned purple with rage..i couldn't control myself..he was eating at that time..so, i pushed away his meals and grabbed his collar and curse him..i gave tonnes of them and he cried..i tried to bash him but the animal in me suddenly gone..i left him and went back to my class..my eyes were glassy, flooded with water..i manage to get a grip..the next day, friends asked me what happened and i told them that he stole my Gundam and i tell them everything about it..later, he kindly "return" my toy back and he admit that he did steal it from me..well, i forgive him and never make friend with him anymore..so, thing is, if you do not fuck with me or people around me, i won't be making noises..tak kesahlah fazrol ke, alif ke, aku akan bising tapi masalahnya, aku percaya yang mereka takkan tergamak nak buat mende yang jahat..alaa, kalau fazrol tu buat nakal, aku cabut bulu dia, senyaplah dia..kan fazrol?? =D heheheh..

"Fair enough.
This outsider knows nothing about what happened in your class.
but this outsider had experience things outside the class. well, i am an outsider.
so i experience things outside."

- if i am not mistaken, the stealing thingy happened in my class, inside my class..so, if you're an outsider, who knows everything on the outside, why bother to know what's inside?..

"but what i don't understand is,
why is the people,who are not a victim,
also feel like killing her?"

- suppose you have a lovely little kitten (i do have one), get beaten by a larger cat, what would you do?..if you are sane, i believe you would go there and kick the larger cat's balls rite?..ok another example, you have a friend, you have known him quite for a long time..suddenly, he is cheated by a mere man and that man stole something priceless to your friend, let's say a pendrive that was given by his mother..wouldn't you feel angry, at least you would say "palat punya orang", at that man?..of course..i would feel that because i love my friends..love doesn't apply only to your love ones, but also to your friends..btw, i didn't say i feel like killing someone neither on this post nor that post..am i right?

"well my dear friends,
we are actually delighted to see someone make a mistake,
so see someone being punished.
it seems like we're back in the roman era."

- are you sure you have read my post thoroughly?..did you read the last part of the post?..it's okay, i'll paste it in case you missed that part out;

i wrote,

"do not you feel remorse after what had happened today?..when will you seek absolution?..just a reminder, you will be the bad apple in the society if you keep doing it..so, stop before it is too little too late.."

do you see any words that glorifies happiness?..did i cheer or laugh or smile or tease or insult that particular one?..what i did and trying to say is that particular one should stop doing the bad things before it gets worse..i gave him/her some advice/piece of my mind..i didn't say anything bad..no menganjing at all..i just state what i hope that particular one should do..and if we're back in the Roman era and i'm a Roman, i wouldn't give him/her my advice, am i right?, because i wouldn't want to waste my time and missed a Gladiator fight..ohh gosh! i do not want to miss the part where they slash people's throat..that would be interesting for me to watch..

i think it is enough for me and i should to stop until here..but if it is not enough to that particular one, i would make a deal to satisfy his/her needs..here is my deal;

I WILL remove "Panic Urine Wish a.k.a Generic Linkup" post IF you fulfill these simple agreement;

find me 5 students, that agree with your opinion.. these 5 students must be;

1. A student in our school,
2. A Form 5 student,
3. A 5SC student.

if you can find me these students, and they back you up, i will remove the post definitely..i promise..

a rounded dusty notion....

ok, it's about time for me to fly away..before that, i don't hold a grudge to that particular one..i just give and share my opinions..and i think it is healthy to debate/give thoughts on something..ok buhbye..

P/S: fringe cut..i'm expecting a fringe cut.. =D

"We Shit Now" / "eye-wine-hum-jilt"

2008-08-02T00:21:00.005-07:00

ahh..i just woke up from my deep, sound sleep..feel rejuvenated a bit but now i'm feeling a bit dizzy and my head is aching..maybe it's because of high blood pressure..well, anyway, i feel like blogging now and i am about to write something that i find interesting..there is a particular one insist and "forced" me to write about something.. XD ..ok, i'll write something..and this post is specially dedicated to you.. =D

in 2007, i was in form 4, just like any other school, there would be an intake around the first quarter of the year..and this particular one was "sucked" into our school.. =b..that time, i do not really know her that much..just heard a little about her from my friends..i can't remember when was the first time i saw her..but frankly, i'm scared of her when i saw her..i thought she is damn sombong because the tendency for her to smile is so small..the probability is the same as the probability of finding a glass needle in a hay..huh that hard to see her smile..maybe because every time i saw her, she was having a bad day or something..whatevs..then, i'm scared of her because she talks like a popcorn machine went malfunction.."bla bla bla bla bla bla bla"..huish really fast!..i recommend you to be well prepared before you pop out something to her..sometimes i don't get what is she talking about really..i have to say "come again?" or "what was that?" kinda a lot when having conversation with her....sigh..i told you to calm down a bit isn't it?..sigh.. =D

after i met her for real, i realize that she is not that scary after all..my perceptions towards her are purely wrong..to me, i find her interesting and fun to talk to..i like her "transparency" when she chats with me..she's very talkative and a friendly person..haha she likes to tease me a lot but its okay.. =D..and she's good in music theory and stuff..i like people who knows about music theory especially if it is a girl..they would look cool and i feel like to know them better..maybe that is because of my love towards music is endless..and i learnt something new from her, about tonic progression..huh at first i was like "what the heck is that?"..then she explains and she made me clear about it..and if saw/met her, she would remind me of cold, white snow..she is whiter than white..can you imagine that?..heheh.. =)

ohh by the way, i'm listening to Starlight right now while writing this, over and over again.. =)

ok lah..feel mengantok again but i'll try my best not to fall asleep..and before i end this, there is something that i want to say to that particular one and that is; try not to stay up that late..sleep earlier if u can because it is not healthy for you..and i would love to learn music theory from you especially about the chromatic scales..so, see you again..buhbye.. XD

P/S: i'm expecting a fringe cut this monday from someone.. =) ..and maybe tomorrow or tonight, i will post something that i feel needed to be post on this blog to clear some things out..to make it a clear sight for everyone..

how well do you know me?

2008-07-29T08:22:00.000-07:00

go and answer some simple questions..

http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/1880319

"Panic Urine Wish" a.k.a "Generic Linkup"

2008-07-29T04:57:00.000-07:00

if you were a man, we would have bashed you already..

why?..the B I G question is why?..why?..everyone is puzzled by your act..we are demented..we just cannot see the 'reason' you did all these things..we just wanna know why..that's all..we're not asking that much..we just wanna know why..

frankly speaking, i have never met such people in my entire life..penipu, pencuri, perompak, penyamun..these negative characteristics are all inside you..cannot you see it?..and you are a good liar..the best that i met so far..seriously i am not pulling anyone's leg..you should have won the best actress or something by now..you deserve it..

ya during Physics, you cried and confessed in front of the whole class after cikgu Azhar and cikgu Hamzan basuh you..cikgu Azhar had enough..he said you kencing him thrice..and before he went upstairs, he told us that you cried and kneeled upon him for mercy..hah just like in the cheap hindustan movies..well, all hindustan movies are cheap =D..anyway, he had enough..you know, everyone has their limit, a borderline should i call it..it's the thin, fine line that becomes the border of our limit ..then, you cried and confessed in front of us and also cikgu Rohana..guess what?..i do not believe you..hell no!..i bet all our classmates do not believe what you just confessed today..and the best part of it, you beg for forgiveness from Alif just because cikgu Azhar asked you to.."saya tak ambik pendrive awak, tapi takpelah saya mintak maaf dari awak"..kan dah kena tuil dahi dengan cikgu Azhar..aku yang duduk sebelah Alif rase nak tumit je dahi kau tu..berderau darah aku dengar kau cakap mcm tu..serve you right..

do not you feel remorse after what had happened today?..when will you seek absolution?..just a reminder, you will be the bad apple in the society if you keep doing it..so, stop before it is too little too late..

P/S: it is an anagram..

The so-called "Genting Trip"

2008-07-24T01:16:00.000-07:00

it's been awhile since my last post..ahh i am back ;D ..i was buzy with stuff back then..did many things..i participated in the National Chemistry Quiz..hahah..i just do not know how in the hell i got into it..to me chemistry sucks..hah..anyway, last Wednesday, me and couple of my friends went to Genting for a seminar..yupp i admit, i saw and met many kinds of people..just like the pepatah "banyak udang, banyak garam, ramai orang, banyak ragam"..seriously for real, i'm not kidding..

it is actually my maiden trip to Genting View..ok anyway we departed for Genting at 1100 hrs (if i'm not mistaken)..then we stopped at Genting Sempah to replenish ourselves..and finally we managed to arrive there at about 1430hrs..checked in, put our bags and had our delicious lunch..ohh almost forgot!..the room that we stayed in was far better than we expected..seriously..these are some of the photos of our room..

nice isn't it?..clean and comfy..ok moving on..nothing much happened on the first day..some long, boring briefing from the camp commandent..

then the EazyMath slot for the whole night..actually, the method of solving the problem is not that clear..i mean suppose you are given a "function" and you are asked to find the inverse..by right, you have to let it equals to y and so forth..only then you'll get the answer..but the EazyMath taught us the shortcut way..a flick of your fingers and there you have it..you will see the answer but not the working..so now i'm divided whether to use it or not..emm maybe i'll stick to my own way of solving it.. =D

the next day, the whole slot was taken and filled by EazyMath..it's not boring but exciting..interesting to be exact..actually, i pity all the girls because the one who gave the ceramah kinda discriminate them in a way..sigh..anyway, it is a useful slot, to me..that night we were divided into groups and luckily we managed to sit "within range"..hah..saya duduk depan nana, caca, afifa, dengan yee jun..kalau takde korang memang bosan dowh kat sane..yee jun memang kelakar laa.. =D

the next day, UITM fella and professor came down over here and gave us a talk about life after school..about how to apply for university..i find that these slots are very informative and useful for me..before this, i do not quite know how to apply whatsoever for university..they showed us presentations and some clips..after i watched the clips, i feel like going to UITM because the clips showed UITM performance and to me, it was pretty good..they were good..they are good..better than i expected..

foods served were delicious and really feed my hunger..boleh katakan semua sedap2 belaka..hahah lepas makan sempat ambik gamba.. =b

cool breeze is everywhere..you won't feel hot at all..the air is dry and cool..and first thing that you'll see in the morning is fogs..it is everywhere as if it is 'hugging' you subconsciously..what a nice experience it was..

we also played futsal for riadah..i didn't play because i do not want to..we got the third placing..here some of the action..

the other two days are not that interesting and boring..i was bored stiff..nothing much happened..i can say that most students are not paying full attention to the slots..but i managed not to fall asleep during the slots..huh..shaqib tertido banyak kali..sian 'aqib'..ramai yang tertido..aku ada la skali dua.. =b

..but those girls behind me kept me 'awake'..we swap things and exchange paper msgs while the one gave us the talk..nana and afifa suroh aku lukis macam2..gitar la..semata mata untuk mewarna..haiyo..but out of all things that i drew, there is a thing that i considered a bit interesting..i drew for them the "Spiral of Roots"..they kinda amazed at first..and i explained to them the concept, the Pythagoras Theorem..during these long talks, nana always kacau me..aiyo..at least you entertained me..and i spoke kinda a lot with yee jun..and i let her listen to Starlight and she likes it.. =D ..huh..and please, calm down a bit, will ya?.. =)

there was a time where i didnt change my shirt for 3 consecutive days..same shirt without changing it..luckily it didnt smell bad..then, when i change it with a new one, the girls clapped merrily at me..i was like "whoa..what was that for?", "yayy!!..oma dah tukar baju!!"..haiyoh!..kahkahkah..i didnt change my clothes bcos i am running out of shirts laa that time..not because im a pengotor whatsoever..haish..best jugak bila ingat balik kejadian2 kat sane..heheh..i believe everyone was happy throughout the seminar..i wish it was longer..after the talk, the girls wanted to snap some pics on the lift..and i'm the one who had to snap the pics..haiya..i snapped some..

after the talk, they gave us the type of performance that we need to perform the night before we go back to our school..and we got "action song"..it was tough at first..but luckily we have adam..at least, there is a director to write the story..hah..anyway, i just follow through what adam planned..i dont like performances..i hate it with passion..we made a 'medley' song by pasting snippets of songs together including Time Is Running Out by MUSE..i was electrified with joy when adam told me that he wanted to use Muse song..i wasn't expecting it adam..thanks anyway..and FYI, all the guitar part in that TIRO snippet is actually played by me..100% by me..sounds the same rite?.. =b

everyone was getting ready for the performance..

on the night of the performance, amir freaked out..i don't know why..and i don't know whether it was real or fake..i believe its real..anyway, i can feel the tension building up..nana also freaked out..syarzuan freaked out..but i do not feel anything..i do not know why..nana kept telling me that she's nervous..aiyo..fortunately, i managed to get a grip..huh thank God..

after we performed, they announced the winners and we got third placing..to me, it was bullshit because everything wasnt going according to plan..aiyo..i think i embarassed myself out there..well, at least we threw out our ideas and it somehow 'transformed' into a story line..yeah whatevs..

the last day, everyone woke up quite late since there is no more morning assembly like it used to..i washed up and straight away packed my belongings..after eating a hearty breakfast, we went to the ball and hear a talk from the wakil from Yayasan Pahang..lastly, we sang a song called "Doa Perpisahan"..sebak jugak rasenya..tapi apa nak buat..hahah..

and before we went back to our room to get our bags before departing for school, we and the girls struck poses and snapped some pics along the way back to the condo..here are some of the photos.. P/S: ada satu gambar tu macam koya Hujan sket.. =D

yupp thats about it..i think what i can conclude here is that we live in a mixed society..we have to somehow find a way to blend in with the crowd..you just cannot be selfish..you have to help others by offering them a hand..respect the weak..and no matter what happens, we will still be friends..thanks everyone..thank you very much..i must tell ya that i do feel motivated after this trip..i hope all of us will pass SPM with flying colours and achieve awesome results..InsyaAllah..

Resuscitate

2008-07-12T07:05:00.000-07:00

just now i watched the news..and our PM gave his speech about something..i turned purple with rage (lil' exaggerating don't you think?) when he "manipulate" some facts..as if he wasn't the one who inflicts damages to his own race and party to be exact....you are a M*****F*****..sigh...

we must wake up and oppose and disagree;

Losing control,
Losing our faith,
Boxed up inside,
In time to be erased...

recurring numbers

2008-07-12T04:37:00.000-07:00

I can't remember when but i believe it happened the other day..thursday I guess..i had this..nightmare..a bad dream..it really fuck my day..i wouldn't want it to happen ever again..

in that dream, something that everyone would not want to happen, occur in my dream..they keep flashing in that dream..on and on..again and again..it sucks big time I tell ya..during each interval, three numbers appeared simultaneously..i can see these in a clear sight..the numbers are : 201, 700, 700

the thing that made me curious is; why do these numbers kept appearing in that dream?..201, 700, 700..wtf???

anyway, I'm sure it will not happen..have the tendency but..fuck i do not want to think about it..

-case closed-

I am going to New Zealand

2008-07-09T03:49:00.000-07:00

nahh..actually something happen today..and its about New Zealand..it is so embarassing that i cannot face the shame..but at least i learnt something new..hahah..

ok it's like this..i went to an English class..everything was normal..totally normal..and on that class, we discussed about how to write an essay, especially the first paragraph which is the intro..then the teacher asked us to write the first paragraph of an essay..the topic was "Travelling"..each one of us has to write one and read it aloud..so i wrote one..and everyone did the same too..

I wrote : "Where would you go if you are given the chance to travel anywhere in the world?. If I were given the chance, i would definitely go to one of the most beautiful country in Europe, New Zealand. Over there, I can enjoy the awe-inspiring scenery while relaxing my mind and shaking off my stress. Cool breeze air, breathtaking scenery, serene vibe; these are the things that I can find in New Zealand."

when I read that aloud, everyone was like "whoa gosh!"..i was like "what?"..then everyone turned to me and the teacher laugh suddenly..everyone snorted a little.."Umar, New Zealand is not in Europe" my teacher said..my face turned fucking red..i feel so embarassed..so numb..i was electrocuted..i mean just imagine saying that in front of your class..aiyo..and I JUST KNEW that New Zealand is NOT IN EUROPE..after 17 years..i just knew today,,i just knew..just knew...sigh...seriously, all this while, i swear to God, i thought that New Zealand is in Europe....sigh..

yupp..you can laugh all you want..its okay..i learnt something today.. =D

well, shit happens...

Thank You

2008-06-29T22:24:00.000-07:00

i feel there's something missing right now..i feel "hollow"..i feel "incomplete"..i feel "empty"..i just can't describe how i feel right now..thanks to LCK..thank you..

hish tak senang duduk la sekarang..rase semacam..rase gundah macam palat..tapi bila Alif dan Azraai ada rasa semangat sket..terutama lepas Alif cerita..serious shit aku katakan kau memang hati kering..aku respect ka..

Thank You..

The "E-Species"

2008-06-24T06:37:00.000-07:00

stressed up these few days..i will not tell you why because it will not make any difference but i will tell you what makes me feel stressed up..first, i want to apologize in advance because in this post, i might use cursing words like fuck, babi, bodoh, puki, butoh, et cetera..this post speaks on behalf of my heart content..

do you ever feel so stressed up that you feel like crying or bashing the one who make you feel stressed?..i do believe that everyone do experience this kind of stress at least once in their life time..i feel stressed up because something happened on a particular day..the other day actually..it's like this..in my school, i have friends, foes, "plastic" friends, teachers, favorite teachers, "AK" teachers, "AK" friends and et cetera..too many to mention..due to its large number, i categorized these people especially the teacher's population into two species or i suppose it can be called groups..they are called the "E-Species" and the "neutral-species"..only me and LCK know the true meaning of the term..i am going to concentrate on the "E-Species" rather than focusing on the "neutral-species"..back to the topic, these people usually will try their best to "please" me by saying something that i do not like..they thought that by saying that "thing", i would feel happy but it will not make me happy..dammit!..i fuck those who say the word in front of me..fuck it man..i will not tell you what but you would know what it is if you had known me for years..i feel "used" by them..these E-nians do not realize how much i hate them when they say that fucking thing..i can list them for you but i do not think it is such a good idea for me to expose these people..yeah that's right, they "expose" me..i just want to be a low profile one..i just do not want anyone to know about my background whatsoever..i want them to accept me for who i am..not because of that thing..babi la!!!..lancau!..in my school, i noticed that there are 4 teachers in my school that become the "kepala" for this group..3 teachers and a sir..i know that you "care" about me but too much of your attention would lead to "kerimasan"..these 4 teachers have the highest tendency to "expose" me/say that particular thing in front of me/my friends without thinking first..sorry if i offense these teachers but when will you understand the situation?..i gave them lots of hints that i do not like what they did but they just can't see it..RECENTLY, something did happen and it was in front of the whole school..there is this E-nian..this E-nian expose me..i HATE it..really i fucking HATE it..i thought it was going to happen for just a moment but that E-nian drag his speech on this matter a long way..seriously, if i could turn back time, i would..lancau i do not like people to know that thing about me..i just do not like it..maybe because my parents educate me that way (not to be a "hidung tinggi" whatsoever)..after his speech, i can feel that most people at school treat me differently..only some do not..

why i do not like it?..ok suppose you have more money than God (it is just a phrase, do not take it seriously), people would declare themselves as one of your "inner circle" or close related friends..they would kiss your ass and even lick your leftovers shit on your ass cracks without you asking them to do it..the probability for this event to happen is almost equals to 1..ok now the sad part..suppose that imaginary money that you own, disappear completely forever..you have nothing, completely nothing..you only have yourself and your family..for sure, these "talam dua muka" people WILL leave you and WILL not treat you the way they treat you when you own the fucking money..i'm sure this will happen and i can bet my life on it..it goes the same way with my situation..people wouldn't treat me the way they are treating me right now IF that "thing" disappear or ended (the "thing" that i am referring to is not the money that i have/own, but i am referring to that "thing")..everything have its own life span..but i believe that some which only consists a tiny population of these people, would treat me the same way..i mean treat me for who i am even when that thing is not there anymore..i believe that and now i can see/identify who is who..

bottom line, i like people who treat me for who i am..not for that thing..please be more understandable..be in my shoes and you will know how i feel when people do these things to me..hanya Allah dan family aku sahaja yang paham dan tahu..i hope i have clear things out..i feel much lighter now..and sorry if this post would cause such a serious offense to some people..thank you very much for reading this..thank you very much indeed..

Math Olimpiad by PERSAMA

2008-06-23T05:17:00.000-07:00

hahah after a hell of a night, the very next morning, i have to go to school and participate in the math competition..i have been waiting for it for a long time..i'm yearning for it..i love math duhh..moving on, my teacher said that the competition would be held in the morning, 0900 hrs, sharp, but it turns out the other way..it started at 1000 hrs..wahlaweh!!..anyway, i looked at the papers and they issued questions that are not easy..it's difficult..tough..tricky..almost impossible to get the answer!!..hahah..but i managed to get three questions answered..i am confident with my answer on those questions..after two and a half grueling hours, i went back fast to catch a wedding ceremony in Bentong..anak pakcik Arof kahwin..but as always, 1500 hrs baru bertolak..haiyaa..we arrived when people left the place..but anyway i ate a lot there because i was really hungry..then met everyone in Bentong, then go KL, then leave KL for home..

Yuna and Hujan (SABS ChariDine)

2008-06-23T03:27:00.000-07:00

I went to the SABS Charity Dinner at the MS Garden Hotel on the 20th of June 2008..to be honest, i didnt expect my ass to be there cos i never been to a party whatsoever in my life for real..moving on, Elida paid the ticket for me first because i said to her i'm going but actually i'm not..anyway, i have to pay her back and have to go that dinner..later that evening, i'm freaking out cos i don't know what to wear and i know no one from SABS..i would be a loner that night..that was my thought at first..so, i just 'redah' and everything went well that night..i went there just because of Yuna and Hujan..they served Chinese foods if i'm not mistaken but i didn't eat at all..didn't feel hungry so i just left the foods beside..i could say that i'm the Mr.Lonely that night..seriously..then a band and Maisara performed and it was okay..but anyway i feel a bit 'belonged' that night after Yuna came up to the stage and performed;

-YUNA-

her name is actually Yunalis..but they called her Yuna..in short, she's very talented and she's hot..i mean it..her voice that night was extraordinary..fucking sweet voice she had..Yuna performed about 6 songs all written by herself..and her songs are not the 'syok-sendiri' type..she can do well in the music industry if she is given the chance..believe me..
Overall rating: 4/5

...after Yuna finished, there was a performance from a 'hip-hop' dancing team..haha i actually do not know much about hip-hop but it was not that bad..but it would be nicer if the performance were not there..you feel me??..hahah..then Alif called me because he really wanted to go there and i said just crash in because the security there was loose..you could just walk in and have a happy mind throughout the night..about 9:40, Alif came then i gave him the ticket..i went upstairs and boom!..Hujan is on the fucking stage..i ran up to the skirts of the stage with my friends and everyone was like "WTF??"..but then everyone joined us later..haha kalau nak malu tak payah la pergi gig rite?..anyway, Hujan performed;

-HUJAN-

yes the main thing was on the stage and everyone went a bit hysterical..and i could say that i'm one of em'..Hujan tested the sound system and open up their setlist that night with "Aku Mahu
Kau Tahu"..nice song although it was my first time listen to that song..then, my favourite song from them "Aku Scandal"..i went fucking hyper after they played the intro..it was a BLAST!!!..sebijik dowh main!!..no kantoi2 part..the solo part from AG was brilliant..serious shit i tell ya'..after the song, "Lonely Soldier Boy"..best jugak lagu tu bila dgr live..

then, they played "Bila Aku SudahTiada"..fuhh a good one from them!!..one thing that i noticed is that they performed very well and they kept their tempo constantly..after they end that song, they were like leaving the stage but everyone said "we want more"..i shouted "main la lagu pagi yang gelap!!tolong!!tolong pagi yang gelap!!"..hahah Noh looked at my face and everyone and then turn away and discuss with band mates.."hoi!!" Noh shouted at the drummer and "tick tick tick tick" and the riff danced in the air..i went hyper again..it was the best song from them to be honest..mmg hebat lah!!..after that they did a medley to "Empayarmu"..i do not like the song..it's not that catchy..but it's cool..and they ended the show with a wild outro..Noh bashed his guitar at the mic stand and i managed to touch his guitar..hahah..
Overall Rating: 4/5

...at last, things resolved to normal..i feel tired after that..i went back to the lift and i saw AG, the guitarist for Hujan..hahah i talked to him quite for a long time..we hang out together that night as if i knew him for a long time..hah he's nice..then the bassist, Dugong, a friendly person..basically, they are nice..but i think i really appreciate the moment where i chit-chat with AG..i didnt ask him his fav color whatsoever..i ask him about musics, how to make riffs and melody and stuff..and i really appreciate it..
with the bassist, Dugong

P/S: there were many faux pas happened that night especially during Hujan performance..it was fucking embarrassing serious shit..serious malu dowh..but it wasn't me..and there was this one who kinda have weird interest in AG..it's actually okay to like someone but please laa in an "acceptable" way..this particular one kinda "over-reacted" when met AG..AG freaked out i saw it in front of my eyes..that time i was talking to him..i mean he for real freaked out..but i "nasihat" that one and that one managed to calm down a bit..thinking back, it's frightening..my friends told me the same thing too..they didn't like what that particular one did..if it were not because of the "over" thingy, people wouldn't mind..

anyway, thanks Elida for inviting me in the first place..and that night is going to be on my mind forever..it was a blast..what a night!!!

Rage in a Page

2008-06-11T09:34:00.000-07:00

i like these lines;

Breathe,
In deep,
and cleanse away my sins,
I am trapped in,
Boxed in,
there's evil in my veins...

OR

Breathe,
In deep,
and cleanse away my sins,
and we'll pray,
That He will not,
Punish us,
and make a fuss...

it's good..these lines are good.. =D

List of Songs

2008-06-10T06:17:00.000-07:00

pernah tak terfikirkan seseorang bila dgr lagu ni, lagu tu?..hah aku pernah..banyak lagu yang ingatkan aku pada orang yang aku kenal..

this is the list:

Starlight (Muse) - Wen Jun
Unintended (Muse) - Mak, Pn. Azora
Won't go home without you (Maroon 5) - Aishah
Ketulusan Hati (Anuar Zain) - Mak, Ayah
Empty (Click Five) - Wen Jun, Nina
Master of Puppet (Metallica) - Shafiq, my brother
Futurism (Muse) - Ayah
Like a Stone (Audioslave) - Alif Hamizan
Untitled (Simple Plan) - Pc. Sheikh K
Falling Away With You (Muse) - my brother
Invincible (Muse) - my brother, Pn. Azora
Mahakarya Cinta (Faizal Tahir) - Aishah
Creep (Radiohead) - i see myself in this song
My Hump (BEP) - Iqbal, Faiqah
Pagi Yang Gelap (Hujan) - Ayah
Bila Aku Sudah Tiada (Hujan) - Elida, Alif
Aku Scandal (Hujan) - Elida
Shine (Muse) - my family
Stockholm Syndrome (Muse) - my bandmates
Time is Running Out (Muse) - Everyone in my contact circle
Supermassive Black Hole (Muse) - Shafiq, Alif, Lim
Take A Bow (Muse) - Abdullah Badawi
Hey There Delilah (Plain White T's) - Nina
Ada Cinta (Love is Cinta OST) - Aishah
Knights of Cydonia (Muse) - Farhan
Assassin (Muse) - my bandmates
Endlessly (Muse) - Wen Jun
Sing For Absolution (Muse) - Wen Jun
Lagu Untukmu (Meet Uncle Hussein) - Juliana Evans
Speed of Sound (Coldplay) - Alif Hamizan

AND

Fury (Muse) - no comment...

ahah..that's it..i know some of you think that this is a boring list but whatevs..to me it's wonderful..
ok see ya..wanna go read some books..

Selected for National Physics Competition

2008-06-10T05:39:00.000-07:00

my physics teacher selected me and others to participate in that competition..i'm shocked because i never thought of going and i just barely knew its existence..and i got high marks jugak laa in the recent exams..but i think overall, my grades are "falling" down but the fall is not that obvious..just a slight drop..and i failed the fugging chemistry..not suprised at all..only that particular subject..i do not know why..and Lim Chee Kong inspired me to excel in my studies..i feel that way because he plays a lot and curse everyone around him but still, he managed to get good results..i wonder how in the hell he did that?!..huh anyway, i'm afraid right now and fear is filling the air because SPM is just waiting to knock the door..kejap sangat masa berlalu..

WHAM!!!

2008-06-08T04:10:00.000-07:00

i bought the whammy pedal!!! yay!!!

its a GREAT pedal i tell ya'..although it would cost you a fucking bomb, but it is very worth it if you're a music lover..seriously, the best pedal i ever had rite now..it has many functions and obviously it's a pitch shifter..also the harmonizer mode in which the note you play will 'combine' with the note's octave lower/higher..use this setting for Fury..really nailed it..then the dive bomb setting will lower your note up to three octaves lower to make the sound of a diving bomb =b..the iron hard case would withstand such gigs..i would depend entirely on it..in conclusion, it is really awesome and a great pedal..

Holidays End

2008-06-07T08:28:00.000-07:00

feel very lazy lately..maybe because the school is about to re-open..and we have to re-sit some papers and i am not sure why..fug la wei..karangan BM still not done..but its okay, i'll send it to her tonite..

P/S: i got a new haircut..it was not that bad..ok KOT..

2:70

2008-06-04T07:17:00.000-07:00

yeah..the petrol price has gone up..i don't know..maybe it's good and maybe it's bad for us, the people..

The Good:
-now, the Government has more money since they reduce the subsidies..that means more "development" will rose..
-we can now expect a faster development throughout the country..the money can be injected through various corridors (Iskandar, ECER and et cetera) for the people..

The Bad:
-we have to pay more.. =D

thing is; we should not make noise due to the price increase..instead, be grateful..let's face it; in Thailand, the price is RM3:90/litre..we only pay RM2.70/litre..that is like RM1.20 cheaper..so, be rational and grateful..and also try to consume less petrol..have many ways to do that..let me give you some:

1. Use cars that have low "cc" such as Perodua Viva, Proton Saga and et cetera.. smaller engines --> smaller cc --> consume less petrol --> pay less for petrol
2. Carpool
3. Use more frequent the transportation service (buses, LRT, taxis)

thats only a small bit..find ways to reduce the burden..find it yourself..

"Car Comedy"

2008-06-03T05:24:00.000-07:00

Malaysia's political scene is full of ups and downs and it is heading towards a complete disaster after our beloved Mahathir resigned and gave his post to his successor, Abdullah or "Pak Lah"..i, personally believe that no one can replace Mahathir..Mahathir is a progressive-thinking Malay..in other words, he is a Thinker..we all know that and have no doubt about it..but, his successor, Abdullah, does not meet the criteria to be a Prime Minister and he does not portray the good leadership that most leaders have..he won't listen to anyone except himself..unlike Mahathir who is a Thinker, Abdullah is a Dreamer..beria-ria pegi convention sana-sini tapi pegi untuk tido..i saw a vid on YouTube and it was the Islamic convention stuff and of course, Abdullah was there..they broadcast the thing live on national tv..and i'm sure you can guess what our beloved Prime Minister did; sleep soundly while the delegates give out their speeches..syabas Pak Lah!!..are you that sleepy, boy?..or maybe you have loads of mathematics problems to solve since you also hold the Finance Minister post..well buddy, if you need help regarding Math, i'm the man..and Pak Lah, by judging people's reactions, i think that you should tackle the price problems (Rice, Butter, Petrol and et cetera) rather than solving the Law/judiciary problems whatsoever because we Malaysians do not give a damn about it..only you and people at the top are barking about it..if i were you, i would give serious attention on the price problems..i say this because the sky-rocketing price on foods and stuff are driving the people mad..it's common sense laa don't you think?..takkanlah tak perasan kot..ntahlah..cakap pon bukannye nak dengar........i'm tired of him..i'm sick of him..he is too stupid to be our Prime Minister..the stupidest PM that we ever had..please Abdullah, change your attitude or resign or do what is necessary for the country..and remember this; stop talking, start listening...

hey world!

2008-06-02T10:56:00.000-07:00

hye!..feel a bit awkward but still, i'm gonna try my best to introduce myself ya..
my name is Umar and i'm 17..the youngest out of 4 siblings..i have a moderate family..i'm grateful to what God gave me/us..but i fear that someday, money that we have will be depleted/insufficient..thats my biggest fear =(..anyway i create this blog so that i have a 'wall' for me to scribble things that flash through my mind..it could be about math or politics or musics scenes or MUSE or about rubiks cube..it could be about anything..and i do not really care whether people know about the existence of my blog..lagi sikit orang tau, lagi banyak aku suka..also i can polish up my english vocab whatsoever using this blog..

4 facts about me:

1. I REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE MUSE
- in case if you are wondering, Muse is actually an alternative band..comprises of Matthew James Bellamy, Dominic Howard and Chris Wolstenhome..they are fugging awesome, brilliant, creative et cetera..sorry for the foul languages; i just cant help it..=D ..most people underrate this majestic band..i have all their CDs and DVDs..they do not know how to appreciate their powerful music....the song 'Fury', to me, is their Ultimate song..it is near perfect musically and lyrically, prove: the main guitar riffs notes 'turun' scale while the bass notes 'naik' scale (sorry have to use malay words cos i cant figure out the suitable words} and eventually they meet each other after few bars..and that was like fug la wei!!!..is there any other band that can do that?..i dont think so..they are truly an epic stuff!!! -enough words-...so, if you dont know what topic to chitchat with me, just pop out Muse and you wont be disappointed..

2. I CAN SOLVE RUBIKS CUBE
- yupp..thats true..it's a piece of cake solving it..i can solve a 2X2, 3X3 and 4X4..5X5 i'm working on it but not in the mean time..my best time for 3X3 is 70s..haha i think only few Malaysians can solve demented-puzzle..its fun, you should try it yourself..and if you feel like buying one, buy the Rubiks brand cos it is smooth and will last longer than other standard cube..save some money and buy it..worth every ringgit malaysia you spend..

3. I CAN PLAY GUITAR, PIANO AND KEYBOARDS
- i started learning guitar when i was 14..i can still remember learning it..it was tough at first but once you got the rhythm, you're on..i play guitar because i was captivated by Muse songs..i play guitar because of Muse.. =D

4. I HAVE ECCENTRIC INTEREST IN MATHEMATICS
- i love math..we should love math..my friends and people always thought that math is only applicable only on papers but the reality is, you can apply it in your daily life..i really use math theory and stuff in my life..i apply what my math teacher/mentor taught me in school et cetera..really, it works..it may sound a bit nerdy but hell, who cares?!..for instance, i use linear programming whenever i'm buying stuff like guitar strings..based on my program, i know how many strings set i should buy so that i didnt waste my money..trust me, it helps a lot..if you are a cupid fella, math theory is your friend, buddy..

so thats it for now..i will update my blog if i have no 'aral melintang'..it could be about anything.....emm maybe the next post is about politics..yeah maybe....until then, bye..