See you all soon, byebye!

this is my last post. actually it's a bit sad.

well, in this post, i'm gonna write about people that cast away my fears towards SPM, things that make me feel not afraid of SPM and life after SPM.

first, the people that i love, that is important to me and people that eliminates my fear;

Apit.
apit, i just wanna say thanks a lot to you. i really appreciate what u told me and that talk was meaningful to me. frankly, i feel like SPM is just pieces of papers after we end our chat that night, i dont feel that afraid anymore. fuck, you really eliminate my fears man. thanks.

Abang Atan.
without that hug, i can bet that i would explode in any moment. but thank God you were there at that time. i feel the load fell off my back. so lega now.

Abang Shafiq dan Bapak.
thanks a lot. abang shafiq gave me the spirit before he went back to Bentong. i don't feel scared of SPM that much anymore. i'll just relax and chill. breathe in deep.

Cikgu Faridah.
cikgu, thanks a lot to you. you really give me the light of hope, calmness and spirit to me. that talk was meaningful to me, really, it helps. i never thought i should be feeling happy to sit for SPM. "oma, rasa seronok bila nak jawab SPM. . .". the moment i heard the word 'seronok', i feel like bursting into tears but i just chill and mute myself. seriously, i never thought of that word.

Mr. Tan.
Sir, without you, i am 100% sure that i cannot excel in my studies especially in Addmath. and you gave me lots of tips on how to prepare and answer SPM questions.

Cikgu Noni.
cikgu memang menaikkan semangat saya terutamanya untuk menjawab BM. "alaah, SPM tu kacang je. . .". ayat tu memang mengurangkan ketakutan saya terhadap SPM. dan aku rasa apa yang cikgu cakap memang betul.

Emak.
my mom always give support to me especially during exam time. she is the hope and give light to me. i don't feel that scared anymore.

Pn. Lau.
she is like the mother to most of us. i believe she cares about her students by heart. she loves to teach, love it with passion. it is a rare event for her not to be in class. always be there for us.

ms. piggy.
i feel like writing your name here but i don't want you to feel bad or anything. but, never mind that. she gives me the inspiration to study hard. concern about me . always be there for me whenever i am down. sometimes she makes me pissed off. but most of the time, she makes me feel wonderful.


one of the things that make me feel uplifted and not scared of SPM is a song from Muse called Invincible. there is this part of the song, the lyrics is nice.
this is the snippet of the lyrics.

"Don't give up the fight,
you will be all right,
because there is no one like you,
in the Universe."

okay, here comes the part where i find it both interesting and sad;

My life after SPM is over;

- no more text book

- no more the good old baju sekolah

- no more breakfast early in the morning

- no more homework

- no more BIG laughs with Zulfikri.

- i can't cabut Fazrol's bulu anymore.

- gonna miss my teachers

- no more chit-chat with Pn. Azora

- no more canteen

- gonna miss my friends.

- no more studying

- can't tease Alif anymore

- will talk less with Adib

- no need to wake up early

- do not need ties anymore

- can't laugh out loud in class

- no more listening to radio while going to school


i believe this is the end now. before i go, please pray for me and also to all of my friends so that we can achieve great results and excel in life as well. forgive me if i have done anything wrong to you all.

P/S: quite frustrated now, but never mind. .it'll subside soon. .take care sunshine. .

Selamat Hari Raya

finally, raya is here. and that is a Yahoo! for me. actually, not really. i do not want to over enjoy it till i forget everything that i studied.

so, i'm going back to my kampung the 2nd day of raya and maybe i'll be back in kuantan the very next day. don't want to be there that long since i have lots to study.

so, i wish u all, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maff Zahir dan Batin.

forgive me if i did something wrong to you guys. and good luck in the upcoming SPM.

Cheers,

Umar

P/S: be the first and if possible, please hold on throughout the night. .

Sex in pain, keeps me alive, yes.

just ignore the title, don't take it seriously.

that picture up there was taken after our act during Teacher's Day 08'. i suddenly stumble across it just now.

i changed my mind. i won't do any video due to "lack of determination and insufficient equipment". i feel quite frustrated lately. anyway, do watch the song. click it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qgyD2rXcdeU

alright, see you then.

Cheers,

Umar

Huggable, Sleepable, Comatoseable

yes!!. finally i manage to swim through it. some are easy but some are just too damn hard for me. well generally, i think im better this time than the previous one. so in this post, i'm gonna talk about my trial and some other stuff. staying up late; it pays off man.

so, i'll review each paper that i took.

Bahasa Melayu

yeah man, i do believe that i kick ass in the karangan section.

everyone in my class did actually.

i was very nervous when i get the paper.

i fear that i would be blank when i'm about to write something.

but luckily, "u just have to believe in yourself and write".

thanks ya.

Bahasa Inggeris

essay just a so-so.

poems and story brilliantly answered.

summary like shit, i never feel this hard before. why did they issue it? sigh.
novel ok.

it's not as good as before la.

Sejarah
i nearly cried la when i get to know my marks.

i feel pelik why i can't score.
anyway,
it's a "byebye".
enough said.

Pendidikan Islam
heh, i thought it would be easy but turns out the other way leh.

there was this section about Quran verses.

u have to know/memorise them but i do not.

so, i left them blank.

(^_^)

Physics

the night before it, i really study and stay up till late at night.

and it really pays off.

seriously.

i was shaking happy when i receive my paper 1 result.

BUT, it's not that i'm proud or anything.

i just wanna share it with u.

and i hope that my P2 and P3 also as high as the P1

i really hope i got it high.

Mathematics

when i was writing this post, i called my friend and he told me something.

and you know what that is?. i got 94% for Math.

wahlaweh!!

i "bang" hard rite?.

looking forward for SPM.

Additional Mathematics

my forte'.

my love.

it's my favourite subject besides Physics.

anyway, i didn't do that well in P2.

but it's enough for an A.

and there's a one who laughed at me getting low.

it's okay buddy, after all that i taught u and stuff, u do deserve to laugh at me right?

thanks but no thanks.

"u shoo him away from ur thoughts k?. .and shoot him away with ur marks. ."

what a quote from u la.

it really gives me hope in kicking "someone" ass.

Lukisan Kejuruteraan

aha!

i believe i am better this time.

i just tembak some like "tangent".

don't get the concept.

but, it's more than okay la actually.

Chemistry

im WAY better this time.

trust me, i won't fail.

but just the paper 2.

i find it very hard la

i even have the time to colour my periodic table of elements since i have so much time left during paper 2.

sigh.

but paper 3, damn! i NEVER feel that easy before in my life.

i answered it with "colours".

EST

the first part quite tricky.

and the essay, i really like what i wrote.

i think it would be higher this time.

this is my Periodic Table of Elements.

heheh. =b

so, that is all people. conclusion, i think i would kick ass in this exam, much better than my recent exam. i actually deserve it because i studied and i did it smartly. guys, do not study hard but smartly. and do not give up if u fail or something. to me, i prefer to fail in trial than in SPM.

and i'm quite happy with my life at the moment. =D. there's more light to it. i promise, i won't do that la. it's just that i'm joking with u wei, don't take it seriously k. "that" thing is only for me, i won't share it with anyone. i promise u. miss me, msg me.

ohh before i forget, guys, this raya please use it as the time to study. i'll enjoy myself the first two days. then i'll start my engine back. just an opinion from me.

okay, i'm done!.

see u later eh.

Cheers,

Umar

*my combed hair*

Tina oh Tina...

i'm buzy with studying since trial is just few days away..i might not be around for these few weeks..i have to study..study for my own sake..and i'll be back after the trial and that is like, 3 weeks from now??..heh..gonna miss this blog..


studying...

last few snaps..did these after pissa.. ; )

Cheers,
Umar

P/S: i think i've improved in chemistry tremendously (for my level laa)..now i can do lots of question which i can't do in the past...ohh btw!, Tina, its fun talking to you but you sombong and jual mahal with me!.. =b..haha!....and let us keep "that" only between us ya?.. =D


Sayonara~

"A Cheesy Unity on Two?"

it is not my problem...
i didn't say a word...
i never did...
i never did...
who told you to agree?...
i didn't say anything...
why do you agree?...
i didn't say anything...
why are you mad at me?...
i didn't say anything...
who told them to tebal their muka?...
why are you so excited?...
why eh?...
funny, how pathetic...
now you're blaming me...

it's okay...
i know...
aku tak akan jadi pandai walaupun aku tak pergi...
so, why bother to go, really?...
at least, i am well-conscious and i realize that 'it' is coming, fast...
i believe i am not clever and ready enough to face 'it'...
ARE YOU?...
i do not care if you wanna give me a splendid isolation, i just don't...
why?...
because i didn't say anything...

A Cheesy Unity on Two???...

sigh...

Cheers,
Umar

P/S : "don't let it affect yourself and your mood..."..no, it is not going to affect me..thanks ya..

Another 25 to go. . .

school will re-open tomorrow.. shit..

anyway, i'm here to share with you something..

it happened on the 14th of August 2008, 4:10pm..

i was playing my guitar and of course, i played the magnificent MUSE.. XD ..i planned to record my playings and i did record it..and i played the guitar and message with ms. piggy at the same time..yeah we chat and chat for quite a long time..all of the sudden, while i was playing the guitar, my phone blinked again and again..i thought it was the alarm..but after taking a closer look, it was an incoming call..and it was ms.piggy..whoa!..i was like, shocked..never, before this, she called me whatsoever..pfff..i answered the call and for 4 seconds, no sound whatsoever.. @_@ ..i was blank for awhile..i stared at my phone, idle..i called her back and without my expectation, she answered..

Umar: "did you call me just now?..why?"

Ms.piggy: "yeah yeah, sorry sorry!!!..i accidentally call you!!..i pushed the wrong button!!..sorry sorry!!! (she snorted)"

Umar: "oh yeah yeah, sure..ok bye bye.."

hahah, it was a very gelabah conversation i tell ya..she panicked a bit..i can tell by the way she talked to me in that call..so do i actually..and your giggles are kinda cute..heh it was cute..

and it happened while i was playing Starlight..i have the recorded video..and the "hello-moment" is on the video..but i stop to record it when i called her back.. XD

here it is;



i cut my hair today, it is better i think..of course, it is shorter..i look more 'mature'..haha..

miss me, message me...

another 25 to go. . .

Cheers,
Umar


P/S:



i bought Hujan and quite impressing actually but i do not like BAST in this album, it kinda lost its touch..the guitar solo effect sounded really cheap..but this album opens a new chapter for the band..well done..

To Ms. Piggy

I'm away for two days only..I'll be back after that..be a sweet, kind girl while I am not around ok?..I am gonna miss u..take care, my dear..

miss me, message me...

Loads of love,
Umar

21.90

school's holidays are here..yahoo!..now its the time for me to sleep a lot and rest a bit..but still, i have to study because SPM is just only few days away...anyway, Lee Chong Wei got silver medal for us..well, at least he got something for us..

speaking of which, haha yesterday i whammed my so-called iron safe with a sledge hammer and a screw driver to retreive something that is valueable to me..i whammed it because i lost the key and it remains locked for like 2 years..so i have a purpose and it was fun.. =D..i smashed it until the locks broke apart, it took me about 10 minutes..i opened and took what's inside..

AND, without my expectations, i met again with my beloved Gold medal which was given to me when i was in Form 2..ahh, im walking down a sweet, loving memory lane now.. =D...heh the Gold medal was awarded to me during the SMART's 2005 Sports Day..on the medal, there are lines embedded on it, it says:

KEJOHANAN OLAHRAGA
SMART KE-37 2005
L/CAKERA (LC)
JOHAN

yeah, i was the undisputed champion..yay!.. =D..why do i feel so bangga with it?..here's why;

1. It was my maiden participation in that particular game.
2. I beat ALL the guys from other forms (in my catagory); Form 1 and even Form 3..hell yeah, i was in Form 2 that time. =D
3. It was the last event for the particular game. now, it is gone since then.
4. I was the underdog.

my farthest throw in that game was 21.90 metre..everyone else was like 17-18 metres only..my strength tops them..haha =D

Cheers,

Umar