Untuk Dia.

tinggi harapanku,
untukmu,
tak sangka separuh jalan,
jika semua memori kita diletakkan dalam cakera,
akan aku mainkannya setiap hari,
cantik,
engkau memang cantik,
izinkan aku menatap wajahmu lagi,
kau pijak hatiku lagi,

biar aku lupakan engkau,
asal aku tak sama denganmu,
jangan cemari apa yang dah ada.

OMG

ohh my, i open my lappy and guess what?

55 UNREAD EMAIL !!!

59 FB NOTIFICATIONS!!!

iwas like, "the hell?. .dem !. .left for a day and. .dem seriously. ."

wakaka, gonna open them. .

Smack right in the face

"If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a hundred days of sorrow."

man. .that is something to me. .

A smack right in the face. .

padan me. .big time. .

Sunday, 10th of May 2009

J : i thought you were having fun with your bandmates, i saw them. .

U: so if u saw my bandmates in Kelantan, i am gonna be there with them is it?

J: yeah. .it's possible. .it could be. .

U: . . . . . . . . . . . . . . *i said to myself, "the ****??"*

seriously, saya agak terkilan. .i know you are clever enough to understand this, right?. .everything's in sick dumb ****ed up situation. .those lines, including everything, keep on repeating in my thoughts and in my mind. .

P/S : despite all this bullshits, i'm waiting. .that is if you didn't forget about it. .
Period.

OK GO !

it's not the band, duhh. .

well i don't have any specific reasons actually right now. .just feel like typing it. .

but first thing first, emm last few days or should i say last week, there's been a chaotic mess in my chatbox. .it all started with a dude who obviously is not happy with my song. .



so my advice to that dude is, please, if u think that u are better than me, please, do write a song. .but i seriously think that he will not take this challenge from me since he doesn't even know what's an octave is. .aww, that is so lame and moronic of you to comment on people's songs. .seriously, now only i know that moron people will never get satisfied with other people's achievement or doings. .moronic will always find a way to shout bullshits comments. .period.

ok, to the brighter part. ^_^





I CHANGED MY MIND, I'M GOING TO UM. .

lazy to edit this post, so i hope it's clear now. .

i actually got three offers to date. .Matriks, Universiti Malaya and UNITEN. .out of these three, the one that has the highest chance for me to get my ass to is UNITEN. .well, i choose UNITEN because of its facilities that it has. .i've been there like twice and so far, i am quite impressed and satisfied with all its facilities. .what i mean by facilities is UNITEN's buildings are kinda new, clean and look very tempting for students to study at. .the cafeteria is above par, their computer labs are good and one thing i kinda cannot wait to be at is their apartment. .from what i can see, the apartment is for four people to stay at once. .and have four rooms which means one person per room. .that is like sooo good bcuz u can have your own room, do whatever you like with it for let say 5 years?. .and i really really do hope that i can get many chinese and maybe indian friends, i just wanna feel what is it like to mix around with other races and i can feel that it is gonna be exciting. .and hopefully i'll get a girlfriend there. .of course it's not my aim but it could be good, you know, have someone to talk to when you are like bored or something. .but anyways, chinese are welcome to knock my door. . ^_^

uuuuhhh~~, interesting eh??. .

next, i can say many of my friends are going to matriks this monday. .i admit, i do feel like kinda left out whenever i think about it because i'm still gonna stuck here in kuantan. .sigh. .and to all of my friends, do not change your phone number. .guys, who knows, maybe 10 years later, i'm gonna invite you all to my wedding right?. .

and, i bought a new lappy , it's Compaq and it is my first lappy and very happy for it's functionality. .getting used to it. .

lastly, gonna have a good time this saturday night and sunday. .sunday i'm having smartniaga and what my sense telling me is this year's smartniaga is not gonna be THAT good. .no way it is gonna be as good as the old days. .haaaa, what a sweet memories. .

so, see ya this Sunday !

Cheers,
Umar.

Chromatic Expression

let me elaborate a bit about this song.

i wrote this song when i was in F3, wayyyy back then. that time, i wrote for myself, i never thought of forming a band with anyone since i don't know who can play this and that. this song is in A Major, so it's quite happy but i made it look like it's kinda sad by writing pessimistic lyrics.

this song is entirely inspired by the magnificent, one and only, Muse. (heheh, a bit "over", don't you think? well, whatever.). i name it 'Chromatic Expression' because the riffs of this song have chromatic scale.

the verse is 'dark', 'down', 'failing', 'giving up'. but, the pre-chorus is like a small little hope trying to emerge and finally the chorus is very positive if it's compared to the verses. the chorus is like the 'sunshine' of this song.

this song is 4.41 minutes long.

i would seriously love to put this song in my blog but it is very 'raw', haven't done the mixing process yet. so, i'll just post the lyrics here.

Chromatic Expression

My trust in you,
Overused and abused,
Life just carries on,
When you're dead and gone,
When you're dead and gone.

Your gaze beams a hole in me,
Your gaze beams a hole in me.

I feel my whole world,
Crushed, destroyed completely,
When you're out of here,
Hold you in my arms,
Cast away your tears,
Fight away your fears.

One day,
You will pay,
All the price,
It won't suffice.

Your gaze beams a hole in me,
Your gaze beams a hole in me.

I feel my whole world,
Crushed, destroyed completely,
When you're out of here,
Hold you in my arms,
Cast away your tears,
Fight away your fears.

Written by : Umar

Ini random lah sayang. . .

see, that picture right there, is what we call "random". .that's my cousin, we did cam whoring. .

okay, for the first paragraph, i'm gonna write in malay, i didn't write malay for quite some time now, i feel awkward when i write malay now, i gotta practice, so let's get it started.

That blue 'creature', i made it myself, inspired by ben ten's diamondhead~. another random. .

sekarang ni, jiwa rasa sikit kosong (uish, i feel poyo laa to write in malay). .duduk rumah, tgk tv, besarkan bontot, msg with busuk, main gitar, keluar sekali sekala, itu saja. .kadang-kadang rasa jugak sunyi, bila sunyi je, ajak keluar dengan jollene, itupun bukanlah selalu. .rasa macam nak buat je benda yang aku takkan dapat buat banyak kali sekarang ni, macam bungee jump ke, apa apa pon jadi lah. .
okay, there's another random, that's 'mica', my cutest little cat~. mica~~

shit man~, enough talking in malay, i really do feel awkward writing in malay~. .well, need to spice things up over here. .in this post i'm gonna talk a lil' bit about my songs that i wrote and about my 'new' addiction.

that picture, that is me, with my brother's acoustic guitar, i use that to write songs.

i bought a. . . . .okay, now i feel like blushing to say this~. . .i bought a. . . .i bought a gameboy micro. . .haha, u can laugh all u want at me~. . .i mean, i bought it for fun, i am not that serious on it after all and the price is quite shocking, it is very cheap for a gaming console. .that's why i bought it. . .anyways, i'm playing pokemon now and my charizard is level 42 now~. .hehe. . .i mean, come on guys~. .it is not something bad and there's nothing to be ashamed of when u play games rite?. .i mean it's like temporary satisfaction, after i go to further studies, that thing could be gone for good. .so, i don't see anything kiddo about it~. .and aunty ling once said to me, it's something sounds like this "oma u should do things that u want this holiday before going to college". .hell yeah aunty, i'll do that. .hah. .

still remember this busuk?. .

ok, music time. .in the past few months, i've been creating songs. .i write it for fun, at least i do have something to do when i have free time during this nothingness-months-before-going-for-college. .i created like 5-6 songs, the songs varies, love to politics, u get what i mean. .let me list u the name of the song that i created:

-Chromatic Expression
-Wonderful
-Hati yang ku benci
-Trauma
-Awake (it's ours, not mine~)

well, that is me. .need not elaborations. .

from these, Wonderful and Awake are the two songs that i wrote about my life and very meaningful to me. .Wonderful is about not giving up even if u fall down, parents got ur back, life is wonderful and it is wonderful to know that u love someone that is really important to u, someone that u care a lot about. .then Awake, Awake i got it after i dreamt of something (this dream, i can't tell about it, it's personal), then i told her about it and she wants to work on it too. .this song is about us entirely. .this song is ours, no one else, just u and me, ours. .

okie dokie, i got nothing to say already. .it's enough. .

P/S: thank you to those who wished me happy birthday; my busuk, alif, azraai, aishah, nina, my sisters, and so many more, i just couldn't put it here, but u guys will always be remembered by me. .

Cheers,
Umar.

Earth Hour 2009

This 28th of March 2009, turn off your lights for an hour starting from 8.30pm until 9.30pm. let us make something that will embed on our mind forever.

I am in.

Be in it, make it a "one crowded hour".

Cheers,
Umar

I thank you, God.

I got my result, it's pretty good, i'm really satisfied with what i get. most of us scored like hell in SPM. and studying engineering will definitely be my next main focus.

this is my results;

Bahasa Melayu - A1
Bahasa Inggeris - A1
Sejarah - A1
Mathematics - A1
Additional Mathematics - A1
Physics - A1
Lukisan Kejuruteraan - A1

the other three, just B's. Period.

I would like to thank these wonderful people;
God, Mak dan Ayah, my family, cikgu Rohana, "Miss" Azora, cikgu Mahyuddin, cikgu Anita, Pn. Tan, Madam Lau, Miss Irene, Uztaz Alias, cikgu Syazwani, cikgu Noni, Mr. Tan, cikgu Sara, cikgu Rosli, cikgu Rahmat, Apit, Fazrol, Chee Khong, Adam, Adib and lastly to my one and only "bestest" friend, Yee Jun.

To Wen Jun: thanks a lot for the concern, you are way cuter and more beautiful than last time. Study hard this year and I believe you can do better than me.

Thank you and Xie xie and Terima kasih.

Cheers,
Umar.